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Amy Wustrin Occupation: Student
City: Garnerville
State: New York
Country: United States
Member Since: May 2004
Last Login: 06/12/2023

Homepage: http://www.myspace.com/4813233

I used to make poetry
Out of the poison in my mind
I'm far too weary
For any of that now

Words and phrases swim
Around my mind
And I make no effective use of them

I just drift
In and out of consciousness
Back and forth from apathy to outrage

All the while
Thoroughly unconvinced
That any of it matters at all

I've grown bitter
Distrustful
And very detatched form myself

I just want to give up
Pack my bags and go home
Take my losses and call it a Life

I haven't lost my faith in God
But any self-assurance I had
Is lost in some hallway
At North Rockland High School
And they no longer welcome
Alumni back for visits
So I can't even go look
For it

Or me
A girl I knew so well
With an extreme passion
For everything she did
And a wide open heart
Conspicuously displayed
on her sleeve where it belonged
Neon signs flashing all around
"Welcome. Stay A While. Come Again Soon."

Who is this woman
That replaced that girl?
Who is this fumbling
Fearful idiot
Taking over and breaking apart
All the love I worked so hard to sustain
All the beauty I saved up through the years
Like dispair is some sort of
Up and coming trend
All the rage in Paris
And suddenly fitting in is a priority?

She can't possibly be Sara
Who loved, indeed, like it was never going to hurt
Even when she had it
On good authority
That it most certainly would

Who would have thrown her arms
Around the whole wide world
If she ever got the chance

Who wanted to live life to its fullest
And who, upon coming to that conclusion
Went ahead and did it
Like a true America Girl ought to

This woman is an alter-ego
A thin shell of a formerly vibrant soul
A formerly beating heart
Not dead
But not living
A jealous bitch, if I do say so myself
And I'm very unhappy with her

She must be Amy
She's got to go
I'm a desparate psycho ex-boyfriend
And I want my Sara back
Because I have to figure out
What to do with the rest of my life
But Amy is a stranger to me
And I can't choose a stranger's future



"Taken out of context
I must seem so strage"
~Ani DiFranco

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Title Date Posted Date Created Ratings
Votes Creativity Form Imagery Overall
  Sunburn in October... Summer's Joke on Me 10/4/2004 10/04/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Sunlight Floods My Room 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  The Cult Of Celebrity Needs to Die - Explicit 08/24/2007 08/24/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  The First Time Was Just Practice 01/18/2017 01/18/2017 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Therapudic Communication - Explicit 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  There's Nothing Like Holding On To The Past 03/1/2008 03/01/2008 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  The Thing You Gotta Understand - Explicit 06/21/2005 06/20/2005 1 Outstanding Well-Framed Vivid Well Written
  The USS North Rockland (NJROTC) 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Evocative Memorable
  Things Really Are Different On The Other Side Of The Tracks - Explicit 07/27/2004 07/27/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Things That Make Me Wanna... - Explicit 07/2/2008 07/02/2008 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  This Is How To Write a "Dear John" Letter - Explicit 01/27/2007 01/26/2007 1 Outstanding Well-Framed Evocative Well Written
  This Is Where I Love (He Asked Me About My Hometown) - Explicit 06/15/2005 06/14/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Time Heals All Wounds (But What If They're Self-Inflicted?) - Explicit 02/1/2005 02/01/2005 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Turns Out It Wasn't An Engagement Ring After All 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Uncluttered 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 2 Outstanding Well-Framed Vivid Well Written
  Unoriginal, Unapologetic - Explicit 06/8/2005 06/07/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Until We Change God's Name To Love 01/22/2009 01/22/2009 1 Brilliant Well-Framed Vivid Well Written
  Wah Wah Wah - Explicit 06/8/2005 06/07/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  We Need To Find A Yearbook Poem. Here , you can have mine. 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  We're Not Friends - Explicit 08/24/2007 08/24/2007 1 Outstanding Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Westies For Sale 03/31/2011 03/30/2011 1 Outstanding Well-Framed Vivid Well Written
  What If The Olsen Twins Grew Up To Be Ugly? - Explicit 04/23/2005 04/22/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  What I Won't Miss When It's 2006 - Explicit 12/29/2005 12/28/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  With Disregard For My Salvation, I Slept Till Noon Today - Explicit 07/25/2004 07/25/2004 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  You'd Never Know I'm A Nervous Wreck 12/14/2004 12/14/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
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