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Amy Wustrin Occupation: Student
City: Garnerville
State: New York
Country: United States
Member Since: May 2004
Last Login: 08/18/2017

Homepage: http://www.myspace.com/4813233

I used to make poetry
Out of the poison in my mind
I'm far too weary
For any of that now

Words and phrases swim
Around my mind
And I make no effective use of them

I just drift
In and out of consciousness
Back and forth from apathy to outrage

All the while
Thoroughly unconvinced
That any of it matters at all

I've grown bitter
Distrustful
And very detatched form myself

I just want to give up
Pack my bags and go home
Take my losses and call it a Life

I haven't lost my faith in God
But any self-assurance I had
Is lost in some hallway
At North Rockland High School
And they no longer welcome
Alumni back for visits
So I can't even go look
For it

Or me
A girl I knew so well
With an extreme passion
For everything she did
And a wide open heart
Conspicuously displayed
on her sleeve where it belonged
Neon signs flashing all around
"Welcome. Stay A While. Come Again Soon."

Who is this woman
That replaced that girl?
Who is this fumbling
Fearful idiot
Taking over and breaking apart
All the love I worked so hard to sustain
All the beauty I saved up through the years
Like dispair is some sort of
Up and coming trend
All the rage in Paris
And suddenly fitting in is a priority?

She can't possibly be Sara
Who loved, indeed, like it was never going to hurt
Even when she had it
On good authority
That it most certainly would

Who would have thrown her arms
Around the whole wide world
If she ever got the chance

Who wanted to live life to its fullest
And who, upon coming to that conclusion
Went ahead and did it
Like a true America Girl ought to

This woman is an alter-ego
A thin shell of a formerly vibrant soul
A formerly beating heart
Not dead
But not living
A jealous bitch, if I do say so myself
And I'm very unhappy with her

She must be Amy
She's got to go
I'm a desparate psycho ex-boyfriend
And I want my Sara back
Because I have to figure out
What to do with the rest of my life
But Amy is a stranger to me
And I can't choose a stranger's future



"Taken out of context
I must seem so strage"
~Ani DiFranco

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Title Date Posted Date Created Ratings
Votes Creativity Form Imagery Overall
  ... 05/22/2004 05/21/2004 3 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Well Written
  80s Nostalgia? What 1980's did you live through? - Explicit 09/27/2004 09/27/2004 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  A Love Letter To Sleep (The Ramblings Of An Insomniac) 05/22/2004 05/21/2004 2 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  A Sentence Far Worse Than A Slap In The Face - Explicit 06/6/2005 06/05/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Begging My Cat For Forgiveness - Explicit 06/23/2005 06/23/2005 5 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Blank Sheet 05/25/2004 05/25/2004 2 Outstanding Well-Framed Vivid Well Written
  Boxes 08/17/2017 08/17/2017 2 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Cancer Is A Water Sign 05/25/2004 05/25/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Cocaine Wishes And Marijuana Dreams - Explicit 01/31/2005 01/31/2005 2 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Damn The Torpedos (This Is His Last Nap) 10/2/2007 10/02/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  DIVORCE COOKIES - Explicit 02/14/2011 02/14/2011 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Dr. Suess Would Have A Heart Attack, But I Think It's Funny! - Explicit 02/26/2005 02/26/2005 1 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  Falling Off The Floor - Explicit 05/25/2004 05/25/2004 1 Imaginative Well-Framed Descriptive Well Written
  Football Season Will Be The End of Us 01/25/2008 01/25/2008 1 Outstanding Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  For No One In Particualr - Explicit 08/24/2007 08/24/2007 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Going To The Seawall Alone - Explicit 07/16/2005 07/16/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Grandpa's Taking Another Nap 07/17/2005 07/17/2005 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
  Great Pretender 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 1 Outstanding Well-Framed Descriptive Well Written
  Honey I've Been Around the Block And You Were Never My Last Stop 06/22/2006 06/22/2006 1 Imaginative Competent Descriptive Well Written
  I Can't Even Settle On My Own Name, Let Alone My Poem's - Explicit 07/27/2005 07/27/2005 2 Imaginative Competent Evocative Well Written
  I Dare You To Tell Me (The Truth, I Mean) - Explicit 10/20/2004 10/19/2004 1 Original Competent Vivid Memorable
  If I Wanted to Play Games 05/29/2004 05/29/2004 1 Brilliant Well-Framed Evocative Memorable
  I'll Try To Be More Poetic Next Time 09/23/2004 09/23/2004 2 Outstanding Well-Framed Evocative Well Written
  I'm Coming For You (If You Know What I Mean) - Explicit 07/6/2004 07/06/2004 2 Brilliant Outstanding Flow Vivid Memorable
  I'm Sorry I Can Never Say This To Your Face. You Should Be Too. 09/27/2004 09/27/2004 This Poem Is Currently Not Rated
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