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Handicapped But Not Stupid

by Joan Serratelli

You told me
just yesterday
that I am stupid
that I should
use my handicap
to get what I want

I cannot do that
I would rather die
than admit
that I am not
capable

I can walk
I can talk
I can live
I can write

My body
is not capable
of doing some things
My mind is fine
I can think

I have,
over the years,
come to grips
with myself
I have learned
to ignore the stares
of ignorant, intolerant
people who pretend
to care

So I am "damanged"
G-d knows;
I do not know
why I was picked
to have this condition

I blame nobody
I live with hope
that a cure
will be found
I pray everyday
that my children
are spared

I don't think
I could bear
to see them struggle
as I have

...and NO
I will never use
it as an excuse
to get my own way

I do not consider
myself a victim
I'm just trying
to have a life
devoid of pain

I know my limitations
I'm handicapped
...not stupid

03/22/2010

Author's Note: Most people consider me as "mentally challenged". A 'shrink once asked me: IF I could change anything about myself- what would it be?" I answered: "I'd like to be drop dead gorgeous!". He said to me; "Funny answer; I thought you would rather be normal". I countered; "nah- NORMAL is boring- I rather be gorgeous- that way; I win- nobody would see that I was handicapped".

Posted on 03/22/2010
Copyright © 2026 Joan Serratelli

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Gabriel Ricard on 03/22/10 at 06:25 PM

Not a chance. This poem is just the top of how untrue that is.

Posted by Kristina Woodhill on 03/22/10 at 08:25 PM

Your spirit shines through in this. I admire you taking the high road very much.

Posted by Charlie Morgan on 03/22/10 at 09:32 PM

...i have seen healthy and this is healthy...i do not have this strength. i am, i said. Neil Diamond said in his song...and that's what he's saying to the world: I AM, I AM i said. and that's what you've said and eloquently.

Posted by Ken Harnisch on 03/23/10 at 04:14 AM

I'd argue that the "mentally challenged" ones are those who judge you, Joan and know you not

Posted by Gregory O'Neill on 03/23/10 at 07:46 PM

Maybe the feeling of inferiority rules the mental life and can be clearly recognized in the sense of incompleteness and unfulfillment, and in the uninterrupted struggle both of individuals and humanity. You are honest, not deficient. Thanks.

Posted by Charlotte Smith on 03/24/10 at 03:52 AM

This is beautiful. Good for you, ignoring those idiots who think any less of you - no one can truly understand what it's like until it's happened to them, after all. I really admire your strong morals about not using your handicap as a handicap (though one could argue that you're struggling to be normal by doing so). (Not a criticism, but why G-d? I've noticed that around quite a few times and I still have yet to understand it's significance.)

Posted by Joe Cramer on 03/26/10 at 01:01 AM

... such a brilliant write.....

Posted by Glenn Currier on 03/26/10 at 03:19 PM

I'm not real sure what it would feel like to be "normal." That word is like an obscenity to me. It implies so much judgment, separation, superiority on the part of the labeler. You are a fighter. I like that. And yes, you honesty makes you stand tall. Thanks so much for sharing your beautiful Self with us.

Posted by Elizabeth Jill on 03/27/10 at 04:36 PM

Better-than-thou people don't realize people can see right through them. And so can God.

Posted by Maria Francesca on 03/31/10 at 01:21 PM

I don't think I've ever thought of myself as 'normal'. Some days that's good, and some days bad, but the truth is I kind of equate the word 'normal' with 'boring'. I've never admired a person for being normal - same reason. Shine on, be you, and never, ever aspire to be normal.

Posted by Maria Francesca on 03/31/10 at 01:24 PM

...Oh, and also, as far as I can tell from your writing, your mental challenge is to create good poetry -- and you have achieved that.

Posted by Razel Davies on 02/07/11 at 01:30 PM

Anyone who could think you are mentally challenged has not the intellect to see who you are. You may have serious challenges but you are more capable in many respects than most.

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