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I know what I was

by Con Gkekas

There have been times
Those come to pass
Where life's been lived
Where we have loved
lied
hated and dreaded
There have been moments
brief glimpses of time
come and gone in a blink
to return as a link
To that which is
That which could be
That which is future
As a man I faltered
Fled from truth
And lied too easily
A beast, reared within
not heeding the sounds
of warning bells
tolling strongly
as i descended
The me screaming
crying out to end it
To cease the dismal decay
of spirit within
Until finally
eternally rising within
the dawn of conscience begins
and i reach from the murk
dark stagnant stench of who i was
knowing what i had become
to the now
where i know what i was
and know what i am not

06/18/2013

Author's Note: This is something written with a knowledge that often comes too late. Sometimes, what we were is not who we are ... we change and put on masks that too often remain for way too long. Behind those masks we cry out for the people that we know ourselves to truly be. Whatever may come always know that you have to be yourself and if you aren't yourself, there is always time to find yourself!

Posted on 06/19/2013
Copyright © 2025 Con Gkekas

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Philip F De Pinto on 06/19/13 at 10:02 AM

a wonderful ode you have written here, Con. what we are is who we were, the former not possible to be lest you had the latter to measure up and contrast with, each and every day, though it be removed physically is nevertheless present if only as something to reflect upon.

Posted by Joe Cramer on 06/20/13 at 11:38 PM

..... excellent! Welcome to Pathetic!

Posted by Chris Sorrenti on 06/23/13 at 03:39 PM

Courageous piece of introspection, with a lesson for all who read it. Welcome to Pathetic.org!

Posted by Rhiannon Jones on 06/27/13 at 12:00 PM

The lines that really grabbed it for me: "The me screaming/crying out to end it/To cease the dismal decay/of spirit within." Good write. Welcome.

Posted by Rob Littler on 07/02/13 at 03:19 AM

I share some of the notions in this piece, this idea of decay and renewal, hope as well...and I am glad I read this on this day at this hour in this moment, knowing we all see it, we all know the jig is up, the truth is out...we are both what we are and what we are not...projectors watching the projection...and hopeful learners nonetheless. Thanks for reminding me.

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