When the Dream Becomes a Curse by Christel CrewsI gave up every dream for you
You didn’t ask, you didn’t need to
I was in love and wanting to see you smile
So I tossed my wishes, thinking I’d get them back after awhile
But the curve balls were thrown
And out the door went my desires, if I’d only known
That I’d never see them again
I don’t remember when
The last time I felt happy to be alive
Burying myself in what was needed, expected as the wife
There are only a few things I’ve ever really wanted
But now I am only haunted
By the what ifs, the what now, and the never will
It is hard to swallow such a pill
For I am stuck, with no way to achieve
And don’t say, “If I only believe”
I believed for so long that they would come
And my sorrows would reap their reward, if only some
But My dreams are gone
And I am stuck, numb and lifeless from here on
Because of a commitment I made
To put you first, the price was paid
I lost myself, forever buried
With no chance to secede
08/29/2012 Posted on 08/31/2012 Copyright © 2024 Christel Crews
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Chris Sorrenti on 08/31/12 at 04:26 PM Excellent expression, emotional and thought provoking. Good to read you again Christel. |
Posted by Kristina Woodhill on 09/01/12 at 01:21 AM Well, this is a sad state to be in. I'm hoping you can change that. You've expressed this frustration very well. |
Posted by Courtney B Chiles on 10/26/12 at 11:34 PM Christel,
Such a great writing. So vivid. You did a great job expressing your feelings. |
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