i realize that i am nowhere near the first person
to have come to this conclusion,

but six hours with a two year old plus four hours of of sleep
while adding exactly one cigarette in those ten hours
will give you some perspective.

after i put him to sleep,
(which takes me roughly 45 minutes because
every cry is louder than the last, and i'm
too much of a sucker to ignore it and accept it
as what two year olds invariably do)
i'm scrounging through the ashtray like a fiend;
looking for stubs with enough left on the filter for
even one or two drags,

and i get to thinking
that maybe i'm not cut out for this kind of thing.

12/09/2008

Posted on 12/09/2008
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