Before I Melt You Down by Beth K HannahI used to think loving you was simple
That it would twist into eternity
We would be happy
Nothing could destroy it.
Now, I make my love a sacrifice
Keeping you happy, when I am not even sure
I wish I could be alone,
And turn off the dirge you twist in my head.
I wanted to grow and bend and shift
I needed to prove I was special,
Your scattered sentences don't clear up
Years of opposing views.
I find solace in knowing you are happy,
Even if I want to jump of the bridge
Or feel the edge of a knife.
I promise to learn to turn off these thoughts,
For they will make my compromise pointless.
I can't destroy you or let myself be happy,
I will strangle myself with your joy.
I will accept that my own wishes fade to black.
And I will walk away,
Questioning.
11/04/2004
Author's Note: If only Jimmy Page could make me believe again.
Posted on 11/05/2004 Copyright © 2024 Beth K Hannah
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Kyle Anne Kish on 11/05/04 at 05:31 PM Beth ... yup, been there, done that ... but you put it into words so well. :) Kyle Anne |
Posted by Chris Sorrenti on 11/10/04 at 02:17 AM Soul wrenching read, well expressed! Excellent close out in those last two lines in how they capture the unhappiness and uncertainty. |
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