Where have you been?
09/13/2006 11:18 p.m.
The question posed to me by my brother. Where have you been? Not in the literal sense of course, I speak to him all the time. More of a figurative sense. He is telling me things like....Ria she is not your daughter.....what are you doing? She would kill you if she had the chance......It is not your fault what happened, stop sacrificing yourself....and you know what scares me the most? Anthony sounds just like him lately.....on and on and on.......He says he is worried about me. He just asked me if dinner was on the table was on time? Has to be as you are a stepford wife now and you know it....he says he does not call at dinner time cause he knows I can't talk then.
So....he wants to know, what happened? Where have I been? I told him I do not know.
I will have to think about it. Where have I been? Where did I go....when am I coming back?
On a lighter note, he found me a very old copy of The Rubaiyat for me....lovely....


I sent my soul into the invisible,

Some letter of that after life to spell.

And by and by my soul returned to me

And answered, I myself am heaven and hell.

~Omar Khayyam

I am currently Depressed
I am listening to my brother......

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You sent me the moon....
09/10/2006 05:09 p.m.
Now I am sending it back....now I know how stars are born...

I am currently Sad
I am listening to water

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Universal
09/07/2006 08:17 a.m.
More universal consciousness....people who never see me but know me oh so well....this was inspired by one of my poems as well and it is perfect, she has written my biography from a feeling pullled out from in between the lines of one little poem.
A most excellent poem to me. Thank you Rene'

Dying is Good

by Rene' Jones
A piece of me died today
giving me the opportunity to know you
a little better.
If I turn loose of some of me
seeing you is easier,
if I die a little each day
I grow closer to you.

Today I saw your soul
when my heart dropped a piece
of itself in the dirt.
It rolled around in agony
and they quietly
went away.
Your soul reached out and touched
me deep inside
with a caress that eased
my pain.

Tomorrow I will die again
just to feel you
cover me in kisses.
To open myself to your heart
and its gentle healing ways.

Yes,
dying is good
if it lets me get closer
to the soul
inside
of you.


09/06/2006

Author's Note: inspired by a poem I read by Maria Howard....thank you for the thoughts Maria!!

Posted on 09/06/2006


I am currently Awestruck
I am listening to the world

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Inspiration....
09/07/2006 08:08 a.m.
I am amazed at how much can be read from a photo and how right on the money some people can be, I know there must be a universal consciousness when I read pieces like this. Thank you Shonda, you pulled the feeling from the photo. I love it.
her violet completion
by Shonda Chrissonberry



she dreams in shades
of blue
those indigo trances
leave her empty
lost within

yet she remains faithful
to her silent words
sapphires glistening
like deep water stars
under the moonlight's kiss

ready to be uttered

her eyes protray a loneliness
born from a melancholy wisdom

she finds no comfort
in her desolate forest
an atmoshpere of lapis

despair

and she waits

for him
her reds-oranges-yellows
her love
her warmth

her violet completion





09/06/2006

Author's Note: pic taken from Maria Howard's journal and piece inspired by it :)

I am currently Awestruck
I am listening to water

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A picture paints a 1000 words
09/04/2006 05:38 p.m.

Caught in the light of the moon.........
I am currently Sad
I am listening to the beating of my hurt

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Pluto not a planet?
08/28/2006 08:02 p.m.
Oh now Pluto is demoted no longer a planet. It is too small and it's orbit overlaps....
Well I am too small and my orbit is overlapping as well.....
Can someone please take me off the list as well....I am tired of my Sun and my orbit. Do you think the International Astronomical Union can remove me from my duties as a "planet" as well??
I wonder if Pluto is happy about the decision, it may be that Pluto was sick of being a planet of his Sun....much as I am sick of orbitting my false Sun....
If only it were this easy.
My condolences Pluto, or should I say congratulations on your release from a false Sun?
Hmmmmmmmm I wonder.
I am currently Bummed
I am listening to water

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Afterglow
08/28/2006 12:36 a.m.
Here I am caught in your afterglow, again......as usual.
Katy said hello....some parts of the world went to bed early mad cause I brought a friend home he he he he he he he...uh oh....did I do a bad thing by bringing Katy home with me??? NOPE. Yucky ride, lots o rain....tears from the sky I suppose.
I am currently Bleh
I am listening to Katy laughing

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RECALL I am not the author, but this must be shared
08/23/2006 11:15 a.m.
This was too cute not to post somewhere, sent to me in email......I am going in for repairs as of now......they will probably compact me though as I fear I have been in default too long for any hope of fixing....


ATTENTION PLEASE:



The Maker of all human beings is recalling all units manufactured,
regardless of make or year, due to a serious defect in the primary and central
component of the heart.

This is due to a malfunction in the original prototype units, code
named Adam and Eve, resulting in the reproduction of the same defect in all
subsequent units

This defect has been technically termed "Subsequential Internal Non-
morality," or commonly known as S. I. N., as it is primarily expressed.

Some symptoms:
1. Loss of direction
2. Foul vocal emissions
3. Amnesia of origin
4. Lack of peace and joy
5. Selfish and/or violent behavior
6. Depression or confusion in the mental component
7. Fearfulness
8. Idolatry
9. Rebellion

The Manufacturer, who is neither liable nor at fault for this defect,
is providing factory-authorized repair and service, free of charge, to correct
this "SIN" defect.

The Repair Technician, JESUS , has most generously offered to bear
the entire burden of the staggering cost of these repairs. There is no
additional fee required.

The number to call for repair in all areas is: please upload your
burden of SIN through the REPENTANCE procedure. Next, download ATONEMENT from
the Repair Technician, JESUS, into the heart component.

No matter how big or small the SIN defect is, JESUS will replace it
with:
1. Love
2. Joy
3. Peace
4. Patience
5. Kindness
6. Goodness
7. Faithfulness
8. Gentleness
9. Self control

Please see the operating manual: the B.I.B.L.E. (Believers
Instructions Before Leaving Earth), for further details on the use of these
fixes.

WARNING: Continuing to operate the human-being unit without
correction voids any manufacturer warranties, exposing the unit to dangers and
problems too numerous to list, and will result in the human unit being
permanently impounded.

For free emergency service, call on JESUS.

DANGER: The human being units not responding to this recall action
will have to be scrapped in the furnace. The SIN defect will not be permitted
to enter Heaven so as to prevent contamination of that facility.
Thank you for your attention,

ALMIGHTY GOD

P. S. Please assist where possible by notifying others of this
important recall notice.

I am currently Good
I am listening to WATER

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I am human and I hate it
08/22/2006 03:42 p.m.
Ah the dreaded moment has come, I find I am human at last. And I do not like it. After years of being numb this is really too much to bear. I hate it. Going from a complete state of numb to this state of "feeling" is too much of a transition to make in such a short time. What have I done to myself? I miss the life of nothing, where no guilt can live. I miss the land of blank where there are no towns with names like sorrow of the soul, guilt of the mind, heaviness of the heart. What is this land in which I have arrived? Will I ever be allowed to return to what was once my home? My hidden hollow of heart. Or have I been forever branded as human, with a number running down my arm to mark my shame of time spent alive?
I miss the me I used to be, she may not have felt anything, but it was better than what I am feeling now. I do not like this pain. I try to return but my heart has swung the gate and I can't get free.........
release me......
where is my key?
I am currently Dismayed
I am listening to a sneeze

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Dancing Chickens keep me awake
08/21/2006 02:59 a.m.

dancing in my head, will not let me sleep.....no mistake in meaning here...7:59 my eye it is 11:00 pm in my world.
I am currently Blue
I am listening to crickets & water

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