Test II - this time it went through...weird 06/09/2012 03:14 a.m.
My peeking into pathetic has only been spotty lately, and my poem-writing has dropped to a teeny whisper. AND it means I've not been leaving comments either.
I think my pathetic trek always quiets-up a bit when I'm trying to settle in to a new routine.
Though, truth be told, I've been itching to see my kids and the reason I've been in Meadville has translated to Troy and I working often opposing shifts and barely seeing each other. Makes you wonder what the point of making money is when it's only to spend it to pay for the building you rarely see one another in. (well, THAT sentence was awkward!!)
That coupled with the fact that I'm a vagrant might seem to explain why I'm feeling restless of late.
And now for something completely unrelated...apparently, sweet food and my tongue do not seem to be seeing eye to eye lately. I've rarely, in my entire life, turned down chocolate. But suddenly, YUCK!! Imagine that!!!
I am currently: Sitting at his computer alone
Listening to: him sleeping so he can be up early to work
I've got an entire entry to post, but when I "add this entry", it doesn't work. The last TEST I did worked....wonder what's going on?
AND, apparently I can edit this post. Why can't I get the other entry to post? Hmmmmmmm
Haha....both Troy and I are working now. Worked a short stint at a convenience store, then I got hired at one of the largest long term care facilities in the area in one of their kitchens (Note to self....if ever job seeking again, do NOT apply as a cook...heh) .
Troy had a couple of very promising leads. Both companies strung him along for a ridiculous amount of time before making other selections. But he applied at one of the local Dollar General stores, and was immediately hired. He still has one better job "out there". They've told him that they moved his application to the IT department, and he's their next choice.
At any rate, we both now have incomes, and stress levels have decreased appreciably!!!
I continue to miss my family in Oregon something fierce. I got a call yesterday from the LTC facility where my grandmother lives. Apparently she was in some pain, and they were transferring her to the hospital to see what they could find out. They had tried to reach my aunt, the one who is her medical POA, but had been unable to reach her (they should join club!!). So I tracked down my aunt, filled her in, and she investigated. The source of my grandmother's pain was an incident where a new CNA had tried to lift her by himself, which resulted in a cracked rib. On reflection, my grandmother said, "Someone should tell that young man to be careful when he starts dating...he has a much stronger grip than he realizes!!!"
In other news, my oldest daughter, Jessica, is now officially the head of the Honor Society at the college she is attending. GO JESSICA!!! :)))
And yet another daughter, Amanda (one of my triplets), has decided her goal for the next bit of time is to become a Pro Girl Longboarder....
My son, Joe, and his wife have two boys now, and life is good for them!!!
Kate (my daughter) and her love, Ryan, are still going strong and wondering what to do next with their lives.
Steven, another one of the triplets, is apparently leaving The Dalles in June. Not sure where's he's going pending a fb message asking him "what's up with your life, buddy?"
I'm never too sure what Jennell is doing. She's my other triplet. She's the one child that never came to live with me, and she wears her father's attitude like an apple. I miss her, but I understand that she's got to tell her own story her own way.
Meanwhile, Troy and I are making a happy life. It doesn't have near as much, ummmmm, physically intimate affection as I'd like, but I adore who he is, and how he thinks, and how he cares for me!!
Well, now that I've got my journal up to date.... :)))
I am currently: content
Listening to: muggy weather
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Way to begin a peaceful morning!! 01/27/2012 07:00 a.m.
I was taught this morning song about 13 years ago. Love it, and was soooo happy to run into it on facebook.
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Grandchild number 2 01/25/2012 07:30 p.m.
Well, congrats to my oldest son, Joe, and his wife, Tamara on the birth of their 2nd child, another boy!!! They named him Asher Timothy Roden. He weighed in at 8lbs 5oz, and is 19 inches long.
Little dude pooped his way into the world, so a bit of extended clean up for Tamara before they could close the incision. But otherwise all seems well. :) Hope his debut isn't necessarily indicative of his future....LOL.
Can't wait to see pics and I sure do wish I was there! I'm going to try to arrange a trip sometime in June.
I am currently: missing Joe, Tamara, Atreyu and Asher
Listening to: a sleepy afternoon
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Pennsylvania 01/24/2012 06:12 a.m.
Fate and Destiny can sometimes seem like interchangeable terms. But for the purpose of this post, Fate is going mean those events which are “hardwired” into our earthly journeys; while Destiny will be used as those details that we, by free will, can choose after Fate has taken action.
That said, in a nutshell, here’s what happened…
Troy had a family emergency and had to come back to Pennsylvania, and he very much wanted me to come with him. So, in a morning that involved a TON of contemplation, I decided to come back with him. I was hoping it didn’t mean totally giving up the ARC job, but at this point it did. Which is actually good, because it was looking like, physically, my knees and hips and back were not going to be able to keep up with the demands.
I knew that Troy had to come back eventually because of his daughter…this just moved the decision to the front of what needed to be looked at in terms of what I was going to do next.
I do believe it’s fate that I’m here at this time. If the emergency Troy needed to address hadn’t happened just when it did, things would be turning out very differently than they are, and every indication is that I have a purpose here. I have some ideas about what that might involve, but I’m waiting for things to unfold a bit more before I really give it more thought.
True to my gypsy/nomadic spirit, I find myself off on another adventure.
Only this time, I’m aiming for a good long settling-in.
I am currently: in Pennsylvania
Listening to: Fate
I feel the beginning of slow motion, like when your senses take everything in, a heightening of what I hear and see and feel, the peripheral visions. I see the ascended reality beginning to bleed through the layers of what I perceive in 3D. A little. A random circle filled with colors I’ve never experienced before. Grids and geometry when I first wake. New understandings. My heart, palpating to catch up to the new resonance, palpating to pull me back up when my energy has been tapped.
Tonight I will raise my glass one last time to the reality that was 2011, and to the dreams I believed in so fiercely. And I will turn my eyes to the reality that feeds me.
"What you seek is actually seeking you."
~Rumi.
I am currently: altered
Listening to: ascension
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Taking a social/internet break 12/27/2011 12:44 a.m.
I'm gonna step away for a bit, so I can meditatively focus on the new year. No worries, I'll be back.
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New job, recovery, and sooooo much love!! 12/05/2011 10:29 p.m.
Well, I got the call today that said I'm hired at The American Red Cross as a Collection Tech II for blood drives. Omgosh, I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude and thankfulness. I start 12/12/11 (sort of auspicious, eh?). Three months in training. An AMAZING daily stipend for meals and just for not being able to be home when we travel out of town. And my benefits start on 01/01/12. Benefits include medical, dental, optical, employer matched 401K, life insurance (with optional extra), and PTO. I sit here, just stunned.
My sister's surgery was a huge success so far. They had to cut her both from the front AND the back to get to all the places in her spine where they had to remove bone that was crushing nerves. We've had SO many people praying - and we've definitely felt it and been SOOOOO grateful for it. Her recovery has been phenomenal!!! She will only be in the neck brace for 2 weeks instead of the 12 weeks she was in one for the previous surgery. She is amazing, and I'm so grateful to be here.
Also, they (my sister and brother in law) have company right now, a friend of theirs, the one who friended me on Facebook. He is very funny, kind, sweet, and intelligent, and it looks like he'll be here long enough to help with Carla since my new job starts probably before she'll be ready to be here on her own. We seem to have struck up quite the friendship :)) Happy times :))
All of a sudden, many things seem to be manifesting based on my intentions, and I couldn't be more thrilled! I will have a job that earns enough money for me to save for whatever is coming in the future, and a place to live that I can afford. I haven't really thought much beyond that, but "now" is so entirely joyful that I don't feel inclined to focus on much more than that.
I continue to work through my grief about not moving toward that future with Adam, and all that would have meant. He seems to be working through his side of things too, and it looks like, at this point, we will always have this amazing friendship between us. It's so good when going forward without one another is accomplished with so much respect and love and good intentions toward one another.
My spiritual growth continues down this amazing road I'm walking, and I am so looking forward to whatever direction I end up wanting to take. There is a major difference between the way I see my future now and the way I used to see it. In the past, I used to pray that God would open whatever door I was supposed to walk through - that I would knock on whatever doors seemed "right" and then "God's will" for me would be the door that would open and I'd get invited in. The most recent message from my higher self and guides is that it's time to be responsible for my own destiny - to decide what I want, have a vision for that, and then do my part so that it can manifest.
And so MUCH has manifested so far!! I am so appreciative of my friends and my family and prayers and meditation.
I am currently: beaming
Listening to: the happy sounds of where I live
