Sometimes I get put out
with my incompetence
or ineptitude.
I call myself names I would not utter
about another.

“Why didn’t I know that?” I ask
more an accusation than a question.

More often than not
the answer is simply:
I don’t practice it
I’m not careful or
I don’t get enough practice.

I forget my keenness for being a learner
and I puff up
thinking at least I’m no longer
a beginner.

I forget the thrill in being a beginner
when it’s so new, stimulating and exciting.
I wonder where and when
my beginners mind
faded.

For whatever new identity I aspire
when I lament not being higher
I need to recall
the joy of being a beginner
and then
add and
multiply
practice.

09/02/2018

Posted on 09/02/2018
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