I don't really want this with you,
but you hold me still when I kiss your lips,
press your face against mine.
Sometimes I think about other faces.
Other bodies.
After what you did to me
I cannot truly succumb to the willingness
to be willing to you.
There will always be a part of me
waiting to hear that you
went out again,
kissed another woman's face again,
touched another woman's body again,
slipped inside another woman again.
I don't want the shame to be on me.

07/20/2017

Posted on 07/20/2017
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