Mother's Day

No Cards
No flowers,
No presents
No good wishes
NOTHING

I've failed
Mothering 101
As my own Mother would say
"No-one ever taught me how
to be a Mother"
I made mistakes;
I'm human
I did the best I could
with what I had
(which apparently was
NOT enough)

Maybe I just did not have what
it takes

G-d knows; I TRIED

I have no Mother
My kids did not even send me a card

I feel awful

This day is miserable
Will I feel better tomorrow?

NO

I feel forgotten
INVISIBLE
unwanted

I'm batting 0

Crying

It's early
and later
I'll just tell myself
that the phone doesn't work

Were the post people on strike
this week?

I'm so depressed
Life is NOT fair
and I've never felt so alone in my life

05/10/2015