we all had Zippo lighters

in jr. high school

all of us

during class we would light them

and then

snap them out

nobody seemed impressed

especially

the girls

this was like watching porn on your cell phone

but there were no cell phones

back then

at lunch we would hide behind the racquet ball courts

and smoke

"yeah I fucked Emily last night"

"you did"

"yeah in the ass, she moaned like bitch in heat"

"how come you didn't fuck her in the snatch"

"hell, I don't want to get that bitch preggie and shit"

"I also fucked her armpit"

"oh yeah"

"yeah she is nasty, I will probably dump her tomorrow"

I never talked to anyone

I was just there to smoke

I knew Emily too

she was nice, I think

we never talked

but it didn't matter

they were all part of something

that I couldn't understand

In high school

I smoked alone

sometimes with the janitors

"you see that bitch"

"yeah I would say"

"she knows what she is doing, someday I want to rape her"

"yeah you should" I would say

"yeah I'm fixing to"

my senior year I had 87 detentions

they were not going to let me graduate until I served all 87 of them

I ditched class, disrupted class, and left early

87 detentions

they had special programs for kids like me

I went to all of them

one of them was drum therapy...

oh that's perfect for me

I could work on my detentions and play the drums

the first day we all sat in a circle with a little indian drum

maybe like 13 of us

the teacher was some fag

he was weak

I started banging on my drum really loud when he was trying to talk

"oh shit, sorry I would say"

after 3 sessions he signed me off

then I had to pick up trash during lunch

"fill up 3 bags of trash everyday"

"ok" I would say

it took forever to fill up 3 trash bags

by the time you filled up 3 trash bags lunch time was over

they gave me a bag and a little stick that could grasp trash

I could never find any trash so I would walk by everyone and ask

"give me some fucking trash"

"no, I'm not done"

"come on give me some trash baby"

"no"

I would grasp their arms and legs with the stick but they never gave me any trash

"bitches"

finally I just went to a trash can and emptied the contents into my bag

at the end of lunch with just enough time I would smoke a cigarette next

to the dumpster alone

I had math class next

one needs a full stomach to do algebra

"yeah that's totally true"

I did finally graduate

but then my parents kicked me out

and I had nothing

I spent a few weeks sleeping on park benches

a tweaker pad

next to the 5 freeway

and with these hippies who lived in a tent

there was this older woman who everyone fucked

cause her tubes were tied

but I never fucked her

"she is fixed and her pussy is tight bro"

she tried to fuck me but I resisted

at night we had a camp fire

they all sang hippie songs

"riding my train, high on cocaine"

finally I went back home

and got some job as a janitor in some nursing home

before I went crazy.

06/18/2012

Posted on 06/18/2012
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