had a weird feeling
forgot it again
You were my mother
I loved you
until the day you
died
beyond that, you
believe in me
ou taught me
to be me

I continue to love you
Death was not
the end

Rather a new
beginning
I feel your
presence
there are things
I do because
of you
and things i do
because
I'm different than you

You always wanted perfection
and then I came along
not perfect
not even close
yet you loved
me- you taught me

you did the best
you could
adjusted
your expections
never made me feel
like I id not fit in

I got your strength
and my own sensitivity
Never let them
see you cry

I never blamed you
my physical problems
were not your fault
you did not
screw up
the doctor did
I knew that
but you
worried

I am strong
because I
have to be
I have no choice

I think I forget
on purpose;
so I can
blame myself
for letting
you down again

it's simply
too painful
to remember

The kids
called yesterday
now I know why
They remembered
WHY can't I?


So, I got the candle
lit it cried

I loved you
Ma
I always will

04/11/2012