You called today
too early
I should have known
you wanted money
and I have none
I know you're mad

I have never
turned you down
but today
I ushered in
a new era
The era of No

I feel awful
overwhelming
guilt
I love you
so much
but enough
is enough

You told me
that you would
eplace the money
ithin 24 hours
that you would
come for the money
later
I have not seen you
in months
No car
yet somehow
you would
be able
to get here
no money
for formula
for diapers
for medication

It does not
make sense
You were crying
I felt horrible
like the worst
person
in the world

Where would you
cash a check
at night?

You swore
the money
would be paid back
within 24 hours
Funny, I heard
the SAME story
last month

you told me
to pay a bill
you HAD the cash
but no way
of paying the bill

The money supposedly
went back in my account
that day
ONE PROBLEM:
somehow
the money
never got there
the bank's error
or yours?

I know the answer

I love you
no matter what
but I had to say no

You have conned me
once too much
and even I have
limitations

Again; I love you
but the trust
is not there
You have stolen
from me
I know that
I wonder
if you realize
that I know

Even after that
I gave you
You're an expert
at pushing my buttons

It had to end
I don't know
when
or IF you'll
call again

I'm sure
you'll punish me

My sin?
trusting you
It had to end

You will never
understand how much
you hurt me

You stole fron me
I can live
without the jewelry
without the money
but I cannot
live without you

03/13/2012