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october 23, 2011

by Ava Blu



i can't explain all the time i spend
having conversations with myself in the shower,
with trees during the winter.

it's no wonder others have labeled me as insane
but that fine line between genius and insanity
is something you can't possibly relate to
until you've spent hours tying threads together
in your brain while having conversations
about zombies, obama or evolution versus creationism.

do i think i am a genius?

no,
but i also know i am not insane

and so i attempt to explain,
to silence just a few of the threads in order
to make it make sense to the world.

this morning
i had this very conversation in the shower,
wondering how best to say it,
to make it make sense to someone else

but i decided there's only one person
it matters to
and i don't need to spend my time explaining it to him
because he accepts it already
and he knows i am not insane
and even if he thought i was,
it would not matter
because when we shower together and
his legs touch the stubble on my legs
he does not wince, he holds me even tighter
and when i become clumsy because i am
awkward in a crowd, he grabs my hand
and smiles

because the only people who will label me
as insane do not know me
and they never will.

10/23/2011

Author's Note:

i'm leaving this one black
because it does not quite belong
within this series
and yet it does
and i am sure no one will care about this one
except my love who is not on this site
and he and i will laugh about it,
discuss all the things that he feels makes me
brilliant
and i will say he is wrong
and he will know i am the most humble
of all
and it will not matter if any of you
read this and think
otherwise.

Posted on 10/23/2011
Copyright © 2024 Ava Blu

Member Comments on this Poem
Posted by Shannon McEwen on 10/24/11 at 03:34 AM

I love the image of the stubble and the awkward in the crowd, a fantastic and vivid image of real love.

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