"A preacher on the radio once said that sins
are cracks in the bucket
holding your soul."


I was sitting on the edge of a pool
with my feet dangling in the water.
It was a perfect lazy summer day
but something was wrong;
the sun was warm on my face
but the face wasn't mine.

A stranger's eyes rippled in my reflection.
Someone else was thinking my thoughts
someone else was becoming me.

I was in darkness.

My feet were cold;
numbness crept up my ankles,
calves, thighs.

Suddenly,
I was sitting by the pool
with my feet dangling in the water
but it was winter
and the ice was biting my flesh
and I wanted to fall forward.

Oh, so desperately I wanted to fall forward
but I realized it wasn't me.

I was in darkness; I felt something fall from me.
But there was nothing below for it to fall into.
I reached down to feel for my legs
panicked that they may no longer exist
but I had nothing to reach with.

Slowly, I found myself at the God forsaken pool
but there was no water
just cracked cement
that begged to bleed.

03/13/2011

Posted on 03/14/2011
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