red's wings by Paul Marino lost boy announcement on the loudspeaker. we’ve stood here, surveying ice cream through these glass doors. found boy announcement. overhear worker say some kids just get lost in thought while staring at sweets, then panic when they realize they’re alone. i go home and use my computer to take pictures of myself with my shirt off.
i’ve been doing this lately: taking my shirt off. the first time is on a walk with you in your suburb and you don’t think it’s hot. i like the feeling only because it isn’t me.
you’re asleep on some beach in new jersey. this is the first friday we’ve spent apart in forever. later you call and mumble at me, sleepy and headachy, feeling lame because your little brother took your friend out. i’m still shirtless, staring at a clean laundry pile on my bedroom floor. hurts to blink, think i have a stye. i look up symptoms … sensation of a foreign body.
i’ve seen my shirtless, uncool dad walk his electric lawnmower and i feel like i have his chest hair. only he has his shoulder twitch. on the way to the autobody repairman a couple years ago it gets out of control, comes with rapid-fire questions.
i feel sick sitting next to him and i don’t know when it started. i’ve liked him a few times. 1985: outside the spectrum, i almost accidentally switch families. walking down winding ramp after circus my dad catches himself mistaking another boy for me.
09/24/2010 Posted on 09/24/2010 Copyright © 2024 Paul Marino
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Posted by Charlie Morgan on 09/24/10 at 03:06 PM ...tis a tall order you have here; so much to chew; a neopolitan of syntax, kept me enjoying the ride, and it was a ride. i bow to a kingly pome[sic]. well done. |
Posted by V. Blake on 09/24/10 at 09:25 PM This is bizarre, and unique, and awesome in so many ways. I really enjoyed reading this--thanks very much for sharing it. |
Posted by Kristina Woodhill on 09/25/10 at 08:18 PM Oh, my, this is great stuff - loved the shirt-off exploration and the segue to your dad, especially the out-of-control shoulder twitch that "comes with rapid fire questions". That last stanza is wrenching and brilliant. |
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