I have been confused by an emotional struggle I have had to hide,
A secret confession of an unseen love that I have locked inside,
The walls of my burdened heart; a barely beating organ consumed by pain,
Through realisation of an impossible love that wont be felt again.
And how can it be possible that I could fall so deep and feel so much,
Though I have never been the subject of your attention, the one to feel your touch,
How I have wondered for nights now, how this could come to be-
Such desperation and intense longing for just a hope that you could notice me.
Though I am just like the gentle wind, a summer breeze barely moving the air,
So incredibly unnoticed, just a passing existance - You dont even recognise I'm there,
My worth to you to be nothing more, than idle words printed across a screen,
And yet I hunger for the return of the feelings that express how much you mean.
As distance is measured by the length of each road, I long for a bridge to your heart,
For I feel it's not the highways, but the my unwanted love for you that's keeping us apart,
And how do I explain in depth, the confliction of the hurt and love you've brought,
The presence of an inner sensation that's often left me distraught.
Knowing you has changed my life and I have become an emotional drain,
Filling up with tears I've cried over a feeling I just can't explain;
Yet, loving you is what I want; through endless consideration nothing else seems so perfect,
And all the heartache I feel each time I breathe, just to love you secretly, is worth it.
Do I dwell on the truths when we talk one day about how you have found the "one",
Will it be an end to my half fought war, or a new battle just begun?
And how I have hoped already, that such words I'll never have to read,
For maybe the pinch of jealousy will consume me on knowing they will have everything I need.
How do you give up something you have never had, a person whose mind you have never crossed,
And move on from someone who never even once saw you there, and yet still feel you've lost,
On what could have been a potential love, a relationship with one you've come to adore-
So many questions to which I have no answers; a love that seeps pain and still I ask for more-

For I can't stop loving you... and you will never know.

04/08/2009

Author's Note: This was written about unreturned feelings of love. It can also relate to maybe "cyber-love".

Posted on 04/08/2009
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