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If I Could Be a Heterosexual
by Harold MillicanIf I could be heterosexual
Maybe I would be
If I could really love a woman as my wife
It may suffice
So youd rather me purport to love someone that I dont
Just so that I could live a life telling a great big lie
There is one thing I cant deny
Im gay
But my love for a man is deemed impure
And all of you are sure that Im only lusting
After him
Only wanting to score
Im supposed to be an asexual nutcase
Only fit to better your lives
Im just the gay decoration
The happy second class
I can plan your wedding but for me Im out on my ass
I have to pretend at the job
To love Barbie not Bob
And be portrayed as a slob for wanting protection
Im a bad influence but
I dont have to wear a shirt saying
Nothing Straight Allowed
Just rolling under dirt
I dont have the chance to have a happy home
So Id much rather get stoned
And use the mans happy drug
To pawn my life away
Today I went to see my partner
In the ward, but according to the ethics board
I dont have the right
To hold him in the room
and tell him hell be alright
Im so good
But after 40 years Im still not good enough
To have all your human benefits and legal stuff
Because Im the animal that seeks to destroy your bliss
And pollute your happiness
With my perversion, my agenda, my life
That you say doesnt exist
And yet in your heart , you know it persists
To be
But I wont go anywhere because I want you to stare
At the truth you cant accept
The children you neglect
The deaths you spearhead all in the name of a Loving God
Despite all the horror
I came from normal sex
So why am not normal like you?
I think I am
You need to get over your shame
And see
That we arent all that different you and me
I hope you wake up from conservative slumber
After all this time, I dont know what youre saving
But Im a man that is
Stark raving
MAD!
At this bad karma and believe me
I wont repress fighting for my
Right to have success
And if Im guilty of anything
Its the same as you
Of course thats your version of equal
If I could be a heterosexual
12/18/2007 Author's Note: Details a thought process in the eyes a gay man seeking respect in American society.
This a repost for those who fail to visit the Rainbow Tapestry library.
Posted on 12/19/2007
Copyright © 2026 Harold Millican
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Frankie Sanchez on 08/28/08 at 07:11 PM i am slowly becoming the asexual nutcase. =/ |
| Posted by Quentin S Clingerman on 09/22/08 at 04:41 PM You've expressed your side of a very controversial issue well.
There is another side which apparently you have rejected because of the unwarranted "gay bashing" in the past.
The preamble to the US Consitution says that all men are created equal ... right to the pursuit of life, liberty, and happiness." Equal here has to mean "under the law". We are not all created equal as to intelligence, physical abilities and attractiveness, circumstances of birth. Well, you can take it from there... . |
| Posted by Kristina Woodhill on 04/15/13 at 01:36 PM "But I wont go anywhere because I want you to stare
At the truth you cant accept" - I like all of this, but these lines in particular. You have a knack for clear expression. Thank you. |
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