it's shocking to think of the days
and number of hours depleted
where has my courage gone
I'm beginning to wonder more times than not...

yesterday, I walked among the crowds
longing for what I perceived I saw
in the lives of others passing by,
desperately vacant from my life ...

what road is this I have chosen
chosen, I say for I am here
walking among the land of the living
yet, I continue to scuffle alone
but why ...

what is this madness I find myself in
and how did I get here
opened the wrong doors
certain I was so right,
pitiful excuse for arrogant pride
in my ridiculous slide to certain oblivion ...

wretched fool I am
thinking I had forever,
nothing but dreams and wishes bereaving
fading memories
fancy illusions
I have no one to blame but me
for this shell of a life, some call living ...

05/27/2007

Posted on 05/27/2007
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