It's not a wonderful life by Rebecca Lin
Sometimes I want
a Clarence to show me
what it would be like
if I was never born.
'Cept the difference with me
and good ole George Bailey
would be that life would
pretty much be the same.
I don't think I ever saved my brother
from drowning
or my boss from going to jail.
Made sure a lady didn't turn into a spinster?
No...maybe I would be the cause of these
events
instead of the solutions.
That's what I think.
It's horrible
that sometimes I wonder what it would
be like to die now
just so I could see how people reacted
and if they were truly devastated.
It's terrible actually
and I can't believe I think that.
See with me
I've always been in the middle.
Try to see every perspective, it's good I swear...
but when I look at myself,
I can't.
I'm two extreme when reflecting my being.
I have this theory
that I'll be at some sort of peace
with myself
the day I can
regard "me" in the middle sense.
Maybe that will be the day
all the stupid inner conflicts end
...for a good amount of time at least.
Until then,
I dream of an angel
giving me strength,
reassuring me that since I'm here
the world will be a better place.
Who knows if that's really true,
but I'm starting to believe
that my existence
wasn't entirely predestined.
I can make a difference
if I try
...right?
03/31/2006 Author's Note: I don't know -shrugs-
Posted on 04/01/2006 Copyright © 2024 Rebecca Lin
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Max Phineas on 04/01/06 at 04:19 AM Now that is insight |
Posted by Joan Serratelli on 04/01/06 at 02:34 PM You have echoed my feeling in this piece. It is thought provoking and insightful. I think that most of us ponder this question at one point or another in their lives. Excellent read! |
Posted by Kristina Woodhill on 04/01/06 at 03:02 PM Rebecca - you are here and that is a not only a thing, but a good thing. |
Posted by Peter Humphreys on 04/05/06 at 07:44 AM Life is often anything but wonderful, I have found, Rebecca but I do know that we all can really make a positive difference to this world we live in. Tiny ways, gentle ways, being there for others ways, being ourself ways. Your poems matter to lots of us I think. They make positive differences. Peter |
Posted by Genevieve Sturrock on 04/04/07 at 12:38 PM applauds for having the courage to say what i am sure everyone thinks and feels at least occasionally in their lives. i, myself, spent several years turning this same question over and over in my mind. |
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