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How to ramble and make others think it's a poem
by Danielle Ernstthe clock ticked to exactly 9:30
and I rolled my eyes for the hundredth time
tapped out a symphony on the tabletop
till my fingernails went numb
I think I mapped every inch of the phone
and the damn thing still wouldn't ring
and I can't take the waiting
waiting
waiting
for a call deep inside I know will never come
but what else do I have to live for today?
you wouldn't believe what Ive been thinking
and Im a little tired of my imagination and my optimistic nature
ganging up on me
every moment of every day since I last heard your voice
or saw your smile
brushed against you with full purpose
knowing full well-
you knew full well
at a moment where everyone else's ignorance
created my bliss
still no call
still no anything
rubbing the feeling back into my fingertips
and taking a sip
from a glass that so recently became half empty
and Im wishing I could get my mind off
of what I want
maybe read
maybe write
maybe sit on the floor of my shower
and let the steam carry away all of my hopelessly romantic
and naive and girlish dreams
Ill take my pick
.
.
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and here I sit
the clock just ticked
to exactly 1:35 am
and Ive long since given up
rolling my eyes
or composing with chipped fingernails
or believing
that someone like me
could ever deserve someone like you
and I don't think Im worth it
worth your time
worth the trouble
or worth much of anything nowadays
and Im just a little tired
of hearing my own voice complaining
so Ill just keep this to myself
from now on-
and read something I wrote a long time
before I even started believing I had a chance with you
but that would only be redundant
it's probably about you, too... 01/13/2006 Author's Note: c. 2002
Posted on 01/13/2006
Copyright © 2026 Danielle Ernst
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Kristina Woodhill on 12/23/24 at 07:54 PM A great poem of the day! Favorite lines - "and taking a sip
from a glass that so recently became half empty." The angst of waiting for someone else to make things happen - very well explored here. |
| Posted by Richard Vince on 12/29/24 at 07:55 AM As Kristina said, "taking a sip / from a glass that so recently became half empty" is superb. The whole thing perfectly captures the feeling of everything happening in the imagination while nothing is happening in reality. |
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