i’d scream

     but i don’t have

           the energy for you to find me

                although i know you’d try



i’d sob

      but my tears are the only things

           keeping me together

                although i know you’d hold me



i’d talk

      but the words i’d say

           would be hidden between the lines

                although i know you’d hear me



i’d fight

      but the punches

           would be aimed at mid air

                although i know you’d join me



i’d rest

      but sleep is the only thing

           keeping me awake

                although i know you’d comfort me



i’d feel

      but numbness

           is the only thing that reaches me

                although i know you’d warm me




i’d let go

      to let you do this for me

           but all i have left is “alone”


                and because i know you understand

                     what this really means is how

                                    i know you love me

01/02/2006

Author's Note: For Joanne

Posted on 01/02/2006
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