i learn more
i spurn more,
preventing this storm inside
my head to churn sore
feelings of regret and rejection
only for my own protection
parasite-like thoughts fight
to bring about depression
into these eyes
these lies,
(mine)
strive to create the
fuel for the fire,
burn all that hate me
see they all persist
yet i resist all temptation
to lose all control and
and embrace sasiation

satisfaction in my actions
whether wrong or right
no sorrow in what follows
in my mind's eternal night
in spite of what i say and
in spite of what i wish i'm
at the will of my emotions
so i dwell on what i miss
a faultline that in time
mimes the cracks in my mind
lines the words that i speak
to all of those that i find
and in time i'm perceived
as a helpless soul in need
that feeds on all your thoughts
that revels in what he's caught
in a web of treachery that's
borderline pure deceit
yet it's not my intention
to make you prostrate at my feet
realize that these lies
are the perception from my eyes
of the interpretation of
my troubled emotion's cries

so don't hold my lies against me
for they are there for my own good
and if the world cared about me
it would behave like it should
but it didn't so i shelter my
inner being like an art
shield my soul from the barbs
that are aimed for my heart
lie to me
cry to me
let me know when you're
through with me
so i can study another example
of what it's like to be you,
and lie loosely
i learn more,
i spurn more...

08/29/2005

Posted on 08/29/2005
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