Staring at the screen
Desperately wishing that I was touching you instead of these keys
Desperately wishing I was looking at you instead of your words in 12 point Times New Roman font.

Waiting for you
To be here for good
I can't take many more of these nights
Where my eyes burn from staring too intently at the glare of the monitor in the darkness...
And I crawl into bed afterwards just as alone as before...
Except now I am thinking far too much to fall asleep.

I think of the next time I will see you...feel you next to me
That time will never get here fast enough...
I need you beside me you know... I need you to help me function throughout the day...to help me sleep through the night...
I am addicted to you... to your body, mind, and soul
The way you sound, feel, and taste permanently embedded into my mind...
I am addicted to you...
You are like a drug
And I never want to be sober again...

10/11/2004