104 (37,985 days) by Rhyana Fisher104
that's her age there
in big round numbers.
still taking care of herself,
for the most part.
i arrived seven years ago.
only seven? it seems a lifetime.
long enough to see the ending
of dozens of lifetimes.
she was there then
and we're still both there.
i wonder why sometimes,
i never meant to stay.
she of course, can't leave.
too many nights i stayed
trying to explain that
as her mind slipped.
that was only this summer.
she's better now, meds rebalanced
but i can see the cracked edges
all too clearly.
am i the only one who pays attention?
i wonder sometimes...
seems i'm always first to notice
when she needs help or has a problem
she knew. she knows.
told me too many times
when the others didn't help.
but i can't be there all the time.
i can't. i wish i could.
the face she makes when
i tell her i have a day off...
or worse, a weekend!
and the smile when i come back.
she never fails to ask
"are you taking care of me tonight?"
i nod, such a beautiful smile answers
so i keep coming back.
one day she won't be there, i know.
she tells me she wishes
the lord would take her already.
but he hasn't yet
and i'm not complaining.
i suppose that's a little selfish
but it'll happen soon enough.
she's already 104.
how many years can one worn out body hold? 12/21/2003 Posted on 12/21/2003 Copyright © 2024 Rhyana Fisher
Member Comments on this Poem |
Posted by Beth K Hannah on 12/21/03 at 10:21 PM sad, but a wonderful tribute to someone who must mean a lot to you. |
Posted by Agnes Eva on 12/21/03 at 11:23 PM wow, that's an amazing amount of days! and a very honest look at the interplay between your life and hers |
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