Childish behaviour
scolding self
creating doubt
filling empty voids
with empty angry thoughts

Crying out
where did you go?
Never knowing why

You're gone
I'm gone
(out of my mind)
and we sit
opposite sides of the world
north and south
east or west
bitterness filling
stretching
angry
hating
biting
cruel
cruel
cruel

You are
so cruel to me
friend of mine
turning your head away
I see your shadow
lips drawn tight
a scowl
a hurting...
you hurt?
you're hurting!
I hurt you?
I hurt you!
But how?
but how?
when?
when?
when?
but how?
ANSWER ME!!!

A problem
your problem
cannot be fixed
will not be fixed
(what is the matter, dear?)
unless you tell me
what it is
what I've done
what you've heard
(vicious petty rumours always)
I want to help
I want to hear your voice
speaking to me
it sounds so empty
so lost towards someone else
so flat
unlike music
the music you used to sing to me
and I'd sing back
and we'd make music
beautiful music
because that was our understanding
now the music has stopped playing
and I'd like to know what happened
where it went
what was done
and how we can sing again
maybe not the same tune
but sing again
something
anything
even our do re mi's if we need to start again
please
please?
please!

10/01/2003

Posted on 10/01/2003
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