Can’t you hear me screaming?

Can’t you feel my body shake as the words reverberate inside of me?

Can’t you see the tears of frustration welling in my eyes?

Do I have to beg for you to help me?

Can’t you see that I am in pain?

Can’t you see my eyes are cloudy?

Can’t you see me drifting away into an endless sea of desolation?

Don’t you want to rock me in your arms until it all subsides?

I am bleeding here before you,

Weapons on the ground,

I was begging for you to understand…

But you can’ hear me screaming,

And you can’t hear my cries,

You can’t see the pain I’m in,

You can’t even look me in the eyes.

Let me drift away now,

And see the world through blurred skies,

Let me drift away now,

To suffocate my cries.

09/09/2003

Author's Note: I feel like this poem needs some explanation. I was experiencing a really bad effect of "the pill" I was extremely moody and depressed and having anxiety attacks. after six weeks on "the pill" I started doing research and realized it is an extremely common side effect of the pill I was taking. (by the way, most doctors will not acknowledge this, they believe that after a few months it will probably get better)I wrote this just after having a major anxiety attack and I had just takin an axiety pill to calm down and was just fading out. Needless to say I through "the pill" in the garbage and am feeling normal again. Please note - I am not a depressed person and I do not normally take anxiety pills. I think it is important for women to realize that there is some of us who have this reaction to the pill!

Posted on 09/10/2003
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