could you forgive me just one more time-
i've ruined everything once again.
every night i've been awake,
i've lamented losing it. i've always lost it.
i'm sorry for what i said, where i said it.
but you wouldn't know it, you weren't there.
for everything i turned over, every word was
painstakingly thought through, only to get
to here. tonight.

you waited and waited, and i just sat there.
staring into your eyes, i couldnt believe it-
all these things i've said over in my mind,
all these nights led up to this:

staring in to your eyes i lose the ability to speak.

breathing in your breaths, i feel guilty for stealing your air.

your smile could melt the room tonight.

and well, all i could do was sit there, like an idiot.
halfway on the way home tonight, i start to let it all out.
the words started to sputter out. building up to a crecendo,
until i've let out every word made perfect for you.

you smile. i melt. and the stars watch us alone.
i smile. i can finally speak now:

'i love you'

08/29/2003

Author's Note: for cheryl on our 6 month anniversary.

Posted on 08/29/2003
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