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oh daddy please
by Kalikala Smithwe are reflections of the people around us.
(scratches head)
why then am i supposed to be happy,
when you're so damn sad?
(silent sob... migrane)
all my life i've waited
for you to grow up...
to be the pillar that any father should be
(glare)
but i'm beginning to come to the sinking conclusion
that i've always been stronger than you
(sigh)
and that you're too old or too something to change.
Too something...
I want you to be
the father I conjured up
in my memories,
when we played all those silly games
and made up lands that were so perfect.
What happened to you?
Where did you go?
Oh Daddy please, where are you? 07/10/2003 Author's Note: going through a not so pleasant time... not sure where my dad is right now... not sure that he cares whether i know or not... not quite sure i know how to handle that...
Posted on 07/11/2003
Copyright © 2024 Kalikala Smith
| Member Comments on this Poem |
| Posted by Philip F De Pinto on 07/12/03 at 12:59 PM you should show him this, straight from the heart poem, Kalikala. it would perhaps remind him that you and he are much a part of the other and pieces seperate and yet inseperable, where he ends you begin and vice versa. |
| Posted by Vimal Rony on 07/23/03 at 03:48 AM Very touching and very well written.You dealt with a very sensitive subject holding the right balance.May ur daddy understand u more and just like u understand ur dad.*hugs* |
| Posted by Matt Forget on 07/30/03 at 04:31 AM Just keep looking up, that's the best you can do. We all have had a fair share of family things and I can say, I'm with you to understand exactly how it feels. Be up and smile and things will get better. You have your friend who are there for you as much as they can be. |
| Posted by Carl Walker on 08/27/03 at 02:43 PM what a capture of an almost universal struggle? Don't we all have an idol of someone else, wife, mother, friend etc. meeting a need; fulfilling a longing. For me that longing landed on my wife. I thought if she would respond to me in the way I wanted I would have life or meaning or be happy. That unmet longing caused me or tempted me to respond out of a lack of love for my wife. I became what I hated. I hated her lack of love or concern (in my judgement) for me and that tempted me to respond (which I did) with a lack of love. I acted worse toward her than she did to me. So then I asked God to forgive me for ever thinking my wife could meet my needs. Please pray for me to have a faith that can have perfect peace when my wife doesn't treat me in the way I want. I want to respond out of a peace of having God meet my needs to the degree I can love others who mistreat me, judge me, ignore me, etc. I have seen a small begining in that and I covet your prayers for me to be able to love others more. If its alright I'll pray if any of that is part of your issue that God will bless you in that too. |
| Posted by Christel Crews on 09/14/03 at 02:52 AM great piece! i have struggled with the relationship with my dad for a long time- i'll keep you in your prayers and him as well |
| Posted by Kara Hayostek on 02/18/04 at 08:45 PM Wow, this one hits close to home, i didnt even meet my father till i was 16! this one line, "all my life i've waited
for you to grow up..." Its sad some men (women too) have no sense of responsibilty. |
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