it is nobody but my fault
i feel this way.
i can try to blame it
on outside things
to get you off me,
but its just an internal struggle
that no one you know
has anything to do with.
well, it's nobody i know, either.
i'm just in constant battle with myself.

so dont feel like it's your fault,
even if i tell you it is.
dont feel like anyone is to blame
but me.
maybe this is why
i apologize for everything-
i'm too scared to deal with myself
that i take on everything else
to keep me from myself.
shit, i need some pot.
fuck that,
i've never been stoned,
but i need some.

12/29/2002

Posted on 12/29/2002
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