grab me from the edge of nothing
let me stay for just a while
i should have seen what was hiding
inside your little smile
put me on your sculpture pallete
shape the statue like me
fuck me up beyond repair
your intentions leave me dry and empty
bounce back and laugh in my face
while i'm crying on the floor
my whole world displaced
broken worse than before
how could you justify
hurting me like this?
leaving the hurt to die
and those left living in shit?

lets play lifesize chess
i'm stuck as the pawn to your queen
time and again i saved your ass
and to you, it meant nothing
walking in a blindfold
i thought you'd always care
but when i needed something to hold
i found out you were never there.

so now, i'm on this edge of nothing
ready to jump to the end
are you there, are you there?
or did you leave me for dead?
maybe you saw me at the end
in my desperate peril
just watch like you always do- do it again
and then walk into your own little world
you're walking through the doors
of never coming back
get wrapped up in yourself
and make others too, do the task
while it's all a device for you
just hide and seek bullshit
and those who can not see
are the ones who wont quit
waiting on you hand and foot
oblivious to you ready to crush them.

how could this change so fast?
a day or two ago i deemed you a goddess
and now i know that nothing lasts
and i'm no longer impressed
just disgusted.

i wanted something forever
which is what you promised me
promises made to be broken
i look back now, and that's all i see.

i wanted to give you perfection
and i tried the best i could
but, this fatal attraction
makes me know that everyone should
because you are perfect
untouchable by all
now you're up so high
just wait until you fall.
and watch the masses
devour you whole

it makes me happy
that you're perfect.

12/17/2002

Author's Note: a rewrite of my first extremely emotional poem, 'perfection (what you did to deserve)'.

Posted on 12/17/2002
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