My mind is in a daze
I know I should feel something
Yet I feel nothing

How should I feel
I think I am still in shock
I feel like I am in the clouds
Life and Reality has not reached me yet

No one understands
They think I should have all this emotion
But I don't

I wonder if there is something wrong
I know I should feel something
Happiness, Intimidation, something
But I am still as light as a feather

I think the truth has yet to settle
You can't believe something until you finally see it for yourself
I think that is my problem

I can't see the future
I don't know how it will be
How can I be happy, or scared
I am just calm now

But in a way
Knowing takes out all the mystery
All my questions will be answered
That person who was always that far away is finally in my grasp

I know that once I am faced with this all
I will feel more than I am feeling now
I just think that I need time
To let life sink in
Then I will see what a difference will be made in my life.

09/21/2001

Posted on 09/21/2001
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