Rejected
03/09/2002 11:32 p.m.
I dont know why i feel this way. i dont know what i've done to these people. my friends dont seem to like me at all anymore- things i feel like i would normally be invited to without a second guess are happening without me. Popularity sucks. I try to keep my friends happy- but i dont know, there are so many more than i can manage- and instead of giving something more of myself to it, i end up spreading thin whatever i already have out there. it seems like no one cares about me anymore- i do after all, have cheryl who gives me a good dose of what i can handle. But i still need more- not just overall, but from more than one person. but i dont know if i want too many people. i know i'm completely contradicting myself here- but still- i never wanted to be popular. i always thought of myself as that guy who only has like 10 or so really good friends, and that was it... and i was happy with that. but now that i look at it, there are more people than i can handle, and as a result i end up being pretty neglecting to all of them. in turn, thats what happens to me. why cant things just be the way they were? i just feel so left out right now... it's probably my fault (it always seems like it is)... i need some zoloft- maybe that would make me a little bit more positive...
andy
I am currently Somber
I am listening to oasis- Dont look back in anger