Just for today
06/26/2009 06:20 p.m.
Pain, shame, fear and anger.

When I feel any one of these emotions, I know that I’m at my limit, and it’s time to set a boundary for myself.

I will not pluck my petals for anyone. They can go “pluck themselves”. Heheh.

I use relationships like most people use drugs. The discovery part of the relationship is one way I “numb out” to avoid feeling pain, shame, fear or anger.

What would it look like if I simply allowed those feelings to pass through me? Could I just acknowledge them and allow myself to be with that emotion, experience it?

Today, I choose not to use another relationship to numb out.

Just for today, I choose to remain single.

Just for today, I choose to acknowledge my feelings of loss and pain rather than avoid them. I choose to allow the part of myself that misses him to feel that loss and pain.

I am currently: in the moment
Listening to: wisdom