Good drugs
11/03/2008 08:30 p.m.

Made a trip to the ER. A little vicodin, some valium, ibuprofen for the break through. I hate western medicine, but I don't have access to a naturopath or eastern medicine, and it's the most relief I've had so far. I'm feeling a bit better, and following dr's orders to not "stay down" through this back pain. Turns out he's right - to be up and moving feels better than not. Less pain, less strain, less tension-related stiffness.

Too much sugar in my urine, though, and a heart murmur with palpitations. When/if my application for the state health insurance coverage is approved, I'm supposed to get an echocardiogram.

A dear friend of mine, the Reiki Master who was teaching classes in Reiki as well as heading up a metaphysical discussion group, dropped dead suddenly of a heart attack. She was only a couple of years older than me. The reality of such tragedies gets closer and closer to home, making me aware that I can no longer avoid the health issues that are staring me down these days.

More exercise, better nutrition, then more exercise, and a good doctor. I need to find one that is not highly motivated to promote the pharmaceutical business.

I've put off taking good care of myself far too long...

I am currently: aware
Listening to: the rhythm of my heart, and the rhythm of everything else around me.