Another transitional day bet. smoking and nonsmoking: Aug.21st,
08/22/2004 01:33 p.m.



Well, not much of a struggle because I am smoking but for the breakfast-to-evening-tea-non-smoking stipulation. My smoking selves did approach and more than once but left without much of a fight. In the afternoon when I had my tea at around four, one of them appeared again, optimistically, but I stood my ground since the non-smoking time was uptill my evening tea which I shall have at around six. Just a few minutes ago he appeared again with a solid argument - ‘in any case you are giving it up once and for all by Friday why not smoke as much as you want’? I countered it with - well, if I can't live without it for another hour how can I survive without it after Friday? He left, and I am here rejoicing in my little WIN. Though I feel a bit ashamed too . Ashamed that this bloody simple thing is taking so much toll. That I have become a slave to these habits and they sound so big. I feel so dwarfed by them.

I am currently Embarrassed