'drive-thru' reply
12/28/2002 05:21 p.m.
this is a reply to a comment left on my poem 'drive-thru deliverance', i thought it would be too lengthy to reply with.

well, this poem was written for a reaction more than anything, which i obviously got one out of you. and just as such, your comment caused a reaction in me. the main message i was trying to convey here was that being born, and dying are the only concrete things that we will ever experience. i dont profess to be part of any religion, because they all have their share of hypocrites. just as many muslims say that they are peace loving people, so do many christians. but, we see muslims killing people, we see 'good christians' killing people. people accepting the answers that their god has put forth for them is fine, it works for them. i just dont particularily appreciate people trying to pass it on me. maybe this is just a phase of youthful defiance, sometimes i get that feeling myself. on the part of my generation complaining about not being understood, and how we expect people not to judge us on our appearance, that's bullcrap. we do this to be judged, so we have something to complain about. and it's not an entire generation that is lacking of their parents understanding- i have a very strong relationship with them. but anyways, back to the whole religion thing... i dont know... if i've messed up so terribly in life by not being a god-loving person, i'm sure god will understand that she created some minds with the capacity to question her, and she surely should have had the insight at my birth to know that this might happen. in other words, it's gods fault i am this way (if it is indeed a fault), so she must surely forgive me for it... right? or, if she wouldnt, then i guess i have no respect for her. i think the search for truth is the only thing that keeps us going. once we find the answers, life is complete, and we really have no reason to fear death. and that thought scares me. i realize that it's painfully ironic, but we all have to live for something. it just takes longer for some to figure out what for.
~andy

On 12/28/02 you said:
This one was a touchy read for me.. but I read through. Normally I do not comment on poetry shadowed by curses... but this one I shall for it is a reminder of that youthful search for truth engraved by the thought of death and what lies beyond, threatened by a void. However, if you are really looking for the truth and not just a way to show the youthful defiance we all have felt... then you will find... there is no fear of death when you know the truth; and, with that sated knowledge and the lack of fear, comes an enhanced enjoyment of the life one lives... including the "down times" which, with age, one realizes only help to highlight the "up times". It never fails to amaze me how youth asks the world not to judge them on appearance and the lack of adult understanding, yet in the same breath judge a lowly "Carpenter" simply because they fail to understand the truth His followers have found, basing their lack of insight on the hypocrites they happen to stumble across. In this statement, I speak not of you so much as I speak of every generation of youth, including my own... I once was a part of the "in" group, too. Good luck on your journey to answers... I pray your course shall be less burdened than was my own. :) deb
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