Last night
09/25/2002 11:02 p.m.

I must have been on something last night, because I know I don't usually act so saddened by people. It has been a busy couple of weeks and sleep has not been one of my strong points. I could be losing sleep and working off of that every night. I'm definitely not supposed to flip out on every little thing.

So those of you who read my last journal and was wondering what the hell was up with me, don't worry, I'm fine. That's definitely what happens when I don't get enough sleep. Talk about a tad over emotional about stuff. Wow.

Confused
09/25/2002 05:29 a.m.

I don't know who I am or what I do to be me but I'm so messed up right now I don't know what to do. I'm sitting here talking to this person, all happy and having a good time and then it's like I just want to be with them. It's so bad. I can't believe I'm like this.

I hate getting hopes up, I hate being single, I hate being lonely, I hate being me. I don't hate many things but right now I hate myself.

Letting out steam....I apologize for those uncomfortable reading this....I'll be fine in the morning.

Night all.

No AC
09/22/2002 08:06 p.m.
What a day! It's so hot out and the building or someone decided it would be great to shut the ac off. It's so hot and sticky and gross! It's 85 degrees in this place...ugh...bad news. I hope they turn it back on soon enough because I can only take so much heat. Where's winter???????
I am currently Gross
I am listening to My fan blowing hot air

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Fire Drills
09/21/2002 05:23 p.m.

One thing I hate most about waking up in the morning is dealing with a fire drill. My own fault of staying up last night until 4 in the morning but, getting some extra sleep today was one of the things I was going to do anyway, just because it's Saturday. 12:30 comes around and a piercing shreak comes into my head, waking me up instantly and basically throwing me on the floor from the eardrum tearing noise. I open the door to my room and 50 times louder than I heard it before, blows me away. I mean, sure, it's a great piece of work to actually wake you up from a sound sleep and definitely make it known that there is a fire there.

So I head out and find that my friend is sitting outside soaked, next to another kid eating pancakes and another girl falling asleep on the curb. Figures, I'm not the only one completely pissed off by the whole deal, nevermind the only one that just woke up!

I found out that the cause of it was a simple burn on the stove. Usually when someone cooks bacon, the grease will set off the alarm and the whole building has to hear about it. Joy isn't it? Luckily, this has only happened twice so far this semester and we have been in for almost a month. Not to bad so far.

So we finally get back into the building and I get to get my stuff to hop in the shower. Well, they managed to be very nice and shut the excrusiating(spelling?) racket off but the great strobe light still flickers with a *click, click, click* everytime it flashes. Tell me this doesn't get annoying in the first 1 minut of hearing it. Yeah, it's been doing that for the last 45 min?

So I hop in the shower, get all cleaned up and because of my trusty alarm for this morning, I'm up, awake and sort of ready to start my day. Exciting isn't it? Love fire alarms....if I knew they were false....I would ask that my pillow and blanket remain on my bed, supported my head and body throughout. Life at it's greatest!

Reality
09/20/2002 05:26 a.m.

A form of reality I'd say. A lot has happened since I've had no journal to write in. Silent arguements with suitemates, a date with a sweet girl, finding out that I have a nephew on the way. Lots of stuff to tell in so little time. I think, because it's too late, that I will just wait until tomorrow to gladly speak about my adventures in the last couple of days. This site looks great by the way.

Sleepy Day
09/18/2002 10:15 p.m.
Yeah I was definitely up really early this morning when I didn't need to be. Not much sleep last night. Oh well.....but my day went slow because of it.

I was officially told that I write too much. Honestly that doesn't bother me because I always thought I wrote too much to get the point across fully. So this time I'm going to keep my journal as short as possibl.....yes i left the "e" off of it. I have t star t shorte m word dow t on lette a a tim, excep fo th on lette word.

That was so dumb. Any day went slow, I'm tired, talk to much, write too much, bad day overall. This week alone hasn't been the best week. Let's see, haven't gotten much sleep, lots of work, bitched at by a professor for actually doing my work (odd isn't it?), talking to much, writing too much. Boy I'm really racking up the points here. I'm telling you I need a vacation.
I am currently Tired
I am listening to French Affair - My Heart Goes Boom

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Camera One, Camera Two
09/16/2002 02:01 a.m.
So there are different sides of the situation from the last time I wrote. So many people responded to my last entry that I had to keep going. LOL. I laid the law down to give them my point of view. People in this world all have their own opinion to everything but there's no need to turn it into fact. They are like everyone else in this small world. We are all human, we all have opinions, no one rules over anyone else. I mean sure if you hold a gun to my head and ask me for all my money, yeah I'll give it to you but who rules who? That's not the point with a robbery...people are just stupid in that aspect; and I'm sure many people will agree with me on this.

Now people learn with time that they are wrong. There's no way you can tell them, "you're wrong and you'll always be wrong". If they want to be like that, let them. They will see it soon enough.

Common sense......oh don't get me started...too late. Who has common sense in this world. I'm not talking about if there is a bus coming down the road to walk out in front of it and make it slam on their brakes. Um....no. Common sense. You see someone feeling bad that you know, what do you do? You see something that doesn't look right and what do you do? The smallest things that could possibly happen could affect something in the future that could be so great.
Let's look at this at a college point of view. I'm sure several people have been in this situation where you've seen a college try to do something to make a situation better and then it completely flops in their face. My college installs a program on the network to allow students and faculty to access email, news, groups, info and all that other stuff all in one program. Here's what the company says: "We have premade packages which have been tested and tested and tested again to be completely or 99% error proof so we recommend taking one of these to get you up and running." My school turns around and says: "We want custom made." Well duh, obviously the custom made program will not work as well as the made error proof program. Have we, as students, been able to use our new email addresses to full extent? Hell no! This is a tech school ladies and gentlemen...not a school for the dummies. Use some sense here!

A few things of peeve from me. For all those that love to read my journal, feel free to comment, converse and reply to me with anything regarding these or other stories that you may have. I'm definitely up for anything. Smiles are the key to success in my book. You don't smile, you're not very successful.

Oh and if your roommates ever piss you off because they want their way, tell them this. "You want it your way, feel free to pay my room payments and you can be glad to do whatever you want to the place, but while I'm paying, you get my say along with everyone else here."

Tip of the day: Never email, call, write a letter or instant message someone while angry. It gets you no where and actually makes you look like a complete fool. Don't do it. But then again, your life, your rules, you live.

From the desk of Matt Forget, Goodnight All!
I am currently Cheerful
I am listening to Sensual Sounds of the Internet Radio

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Peeve for the Day
09/13/2002 07:32 p.m.
Everyone in the world wants exactly what they want. There is no common ground or agreement. As my Tech Comm professor said..."Trust no one!" Of course that has come from a lot of people but it is the truth. "Trust no one".....Words to live by. Everyone wants wants wants but doesn't give give give...or for that matter share and agree. Someone is always a leader and wants to lead the pack. Granted, sometimes that's sometimes a good thing but it can always blow up in your face. I'm sure each person has been in a situation where they have been in a group or organization that the leader is wrong or doesn't know what they are doing. Yeah. Good introduction to my situation.

I'm in a suite of 6 this year. We have 3 bedrooms of 2 people each, a kitchen, 2 bathrooms and a good size common area. Tell me if this doesn't make sense: Take 3 people, plop them in one bathroom and they get that one to themselves, the other 3 get the other one....simple...easy cleaning. Haha right....Common room...everyone should be entitled to their opinion regarding the arrangement of the common area. Yeah I had a good idea to set it up but that isn't working because one person..only one decides how it's set up the way "he" wants it. Bull shit is all I have to say. I'm not getting shanked on this one.

Two people really bug me. They are like a friggin married couple. Yeah don't tell me what I can and cannot do.

They are asking for trouble and I'm not going to take it this time. This same thing happened last year. Include everyone in your decision and if you don't want something, give a logical reason why you don't want it that way other that you just "don't like it that way". Grow up and learn to be responsible about agreeing on something and not just assuming everyone wants what "you" want.

Well...now that all that is out, and they can basically screw off, let me say that today is Friday and everyone is to have a good day. Yay for all.
I am currently Fine
I am listening to stuff

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3 week education session
09/10/2002 12:22 a.m.
So 3 weeks and it's definitely showing. Lots of work these last few weeks and so much more to come.

I've been on a pretty good high since I left Douglas. I am with my friends again and really happy that I'm back. Still lonely but that I guess will be for a while yet. It's all good though I guess. I have friends and we all have a lot of fun.

It's great to be here, dispite the work. I went on a 2 1/2 hour walk around the city just for something to do. It was some walk! I am planning another one soon.

I hope to meet more people in the city outside of the school. I'd like to meet other people from other colleges or same age that I can hang around with. I really want to meet more people and become more social. I'm too social here and need to broaden my horizons a bit.

So yeah...that's about it. Hopefully things will settle in a bit and possibly get better and better as the days go on.

Yeah, my eye is set on a very nice girl. I've been trying to get the courage to ask her to go for a walk or go out somewhere but I'm a bit shy on that one. A year I have been trying. I'm such a dork, lol. I'll get it soon enough. I have some people giving me pointers. Hopefully that will help. Just as long as I'm away from Douglas for a while, I'll be just fine, except for family and sometimes they drive me insane. I think I'll just stay here.

Anyway...that's it for now.


I am currently Tired
I am listening to Internet radio, yet again.

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School
08/27/2002 08:07 p.m.
Well here I am at my dorm. It's great. I'm all settled and I'm happier than a pig in shitty mud. Hehe. I love it. The bad news.....class tomorrow...the good news...it's not until 1pm. Excellent!
I am currently Great
I am listening to Music to fill my mind

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