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The Journal of A. Paige White Reincarnation
07/21/2007 04:30 a.m.
OH my God...
These children make me laugh til I hurt.
Alex said he's coming back as a cat trying to bury a turd on a frozen pond. Right in the center of it. Jarrod said, naw, man, you'll be a skid mark.
geeeeezzz
I'm hurting.
I am currently Boisterous
I am listening to Reincarnation stories
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The goof troop returns
07/21/2007 02:12 a.m.
It's time for me to retreat to my room and read. They loaded up to obtain uno cards. From previous experience, it will likely be vicious.
It's already started. Jarrod told her, "You're not sitting by me. I love you baby, but you cheat too bad." The game hasn't even started.
Oh no. Now they're talking about playing spoons. I remember a serious injury from playing them with the family.
Jarrod stole my desk chair with the "megan only turns 22 once, come on and play!" he played the trump card. Be warned, I take no prisoners!
I am currently Triumphant
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How can you tell someone
07/20/2007 12:32 a.m.
Really tell someone, that you just can't imagine what your life would have been without them..
I've sat down here after going through that old album...
pictures of me pregnant with you six day short of 22 years ago
looking at just how huge my belly was with you inside
remembering the first time i felt you flutter
the awe i felt knowing i carried my first child
a little person
not knowing if a boy or a girl
they didn't do sonograms on demand back then in rural mississippi
certainly not like it was when you had logan where they put it on dvd as a movie!
wouldn't have dreamed of such a thing back then
wondering what you would look like
if you'd look like me or ronnie or what the combination would be
if you'd have his dark indian skin and hair
or my light and sun bleached fair
with you my beloved daughter i experienced it all for the first time
i never dreamed all the beautiful new experiences i would have with you
carrying you inside my body was just the first
you had such a head full of dark hair
and lost it all
went bald
but when it came in it was gorgeous blonde curls so curly everybody called you shirley temple
so curly you couldn't tell which end was attached to your head
still curly but a dark shade between mine and Ronnie's color now
I love to watch you with this new cut you've got
watch you straighten it
you've always hated your curly hair
I don't know if it was because of our many battles for me to brush it when you were little or you just prefer a straight look
people pay good money to get the curls you got for free
my fair skin (which we've both enjoyed lamenting repeatedly) covers the dwelling of a beautiful spirit
a kind soul
so easily moved to great compassion
yet you've hardened too
i wish i could take away the heartaches and tears that left you harder
in this hard world i guess it was inevitable
i wish i could put what i know of living, most of all what i've learned of God, into your mind, to battle the depression you have struggled with lately.
you're so young! i know the frustrations you face overwhelm you sometimes and i wonder how long before you overcome the deepest betrayal of your young life.
...
How utterly proud of you i was to watch you be a beautiful lady. Suffering the heartbreak that all young mother's must fear the worst, you didn't retaliate in kind, you would just sit and cry and cry. And then I wanted to kill him with my bare hands.
y'all are back now, sitting at the kitchen table playing "bullshit" and i know you knew i would have to fuss because i don't want to see logan start talking like that. So jarrod offers his typical alternatives and i remember...
you walking down the trail to the back pasture with us, going to check on the cows and you skipping ahead to holler back, "watch out! Don't step in the cow dodge."
my... we've come a long way from there.
I'll never be able to tell you
to truly express what joy you've brought into my life
and you gave me logan
a little boy more perfect than I could have dreamed up, to adore in these latter years
because i remember...
what a little hellion you were at that age and though i'm tempted to whine that there is no justice in the world for you to have the perfect child, i can't.
lol, it's a deeper justice. It's making up for what a little demon you were at 2. Even Jarrod couldn't compare...
I don't think you have any idea how much I love sitting in here listening to you kids carry on. Even though Jarrod's bellows make me flinch. That boy sure can belt out some serious noise. Watching Kim look at him and remembering you telling me, "she loves her some Jarrod"...
Listening to Jarrod start to say some obscenity and look around to see if I'm near enough to hear him and choke on it.
Alex, "... it's against my religion." and all of you laugh.
I remember when you told me Jamie asked you to marry him and how afraid I was. Too young!
I remember...
when you and Jamie came tiptoeing in...
You almost had a scared look, to whisper, "Mommy... I'm pregnant" and how utterly shocked I was. Never saw it coming.
I remember...
when you started hurting really bad at only 3 1/2 months pregnant and it was appendicitis. Coming through your appendectomy with flying colors and... Logan was just fine.
I remember...
You're first fainting spell just a few weeks later... and your awful fear that I could allay because I did the exact same thing when I was pregnant with you. I just knew it wasn't any real problem. I was so filled with the peace of God through all these things, knowing it would all be ok and I thank Him for giving me such a precious gift.
You've added so much to my life, I can't begin to tell you how thankful I am. How proud I am of you for being such a great mother. A great sister. A great daughter. A great friend.
Happy birthday baby. I have loved you more than I thought was possible. Happy birthday.
I am currently Affectionate
I am listening to Bob the Builder
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mystery science theatre
07/14/2007 05:09 a.m.
I have my own. They rent a "scary" movie and then crack me up with their nonstop commentary.
"No, I think that mole on his chin has something big in this movie"
"May I interest you in a replacement screen door?"
No, It's that bottle of coke on the third shelf. Significant to the story
see that zipper on his jacket, significant.
they're seeing all this shit cause they won't leave the liquor alone
see that table leg, fixing to break
oh look
i can just see chip walkin into this movie
yall hush!
be quiet.
can't hear the movie.
heh the best part of it is the mystery science theatre peanut gallery
drinking that hard liquor. that's all these people do is get drunk and farm.
no, she's not going to die
she gonna die
she not gonna die
she knew it all along
she's creepy looking
she drunk
look it's snowing on his side of the movie
but it's not on her's
they didn't have the snow machine on her side
we need a snow machine
naw that's a man at the top of the screen scratching out his dandruff
camera man's scratching his head
no, it's coming from alex's private jet. he's got dandruff
now she might die
lick that frozen pole and see if your tongue will stick.
horse going to bite her head off
no, the horse is going to stab her
i just saw him on his back legs run behind her
do not turn around
i told you that horse was going to kill her
that had to hurt
nah killed her quick
only 3 people left in the town
nice house, i'd burn it and get all the copper pipe out
she teleported
it's a government conspiracy
and on and on they roll
I am currently Playful
I am listening to the marsh or somethin like that
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font test
07/12/2007 08:17 p.m.
Testing Testing Testing
Or here. Work?
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Two Definite Two Maybe
07/01/2007 05:21 p.m.
next Sunday.
Got to get on the ball and map the route
and push aside the pain and doubt
Definite to no no to say
Maybe to yes for a yes to stay
An extra room? An extra day?
I'm tired of living this shallow way
I wish the depths of me to deepen
I pray my ways no longer cheapen
Your word in the mirror
Can be seen in my tears
Tired of trying and crying and striving
of stearing and gearing and driving
I think I'm ready to do it your way.
I am currently Calm
I am listening to open season
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kidz reminiscing
07/01/2007 03:43 a.m.
I have laughed til I will be hurting tomorrow. Jarrod's here and Megan is in a reminiscing mood.
You remember Jeremy..."He said if he ever had a daughter he was going to name her Placenta"...
We never told you about the electric fence did we? We all held hands, kevin, eric, matt, me and jarrod, and kevin was "Now I'm not going to grab it but I'll touch it with a blade of grass.... bzzzzzttt...
You didn't know about us jumping off the barn onto the bare mattress springs did you?....
God I thank you for my ignorance and for the angels I KNOW were watching over these kids. Day and night.
Jarrod can imitate anybody we know uncannily. It's hilarious. He always cracks me up. Megan's first "real date" with the lisp...
...and we know thith...
I am currently Better
I am listening to Children's stories
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Interesting day
07/01/2007 12:01 a.m.
I joined a new site. Stirthewater.com
It S T R E T C H E S my faith in relation to prophetic revelations.
S T R E T C H E S and S T R E T C H E S....
AWESOME stuff. Even better are the other members comments that make sense of things I've been seeing, some things I've been experiencing (Itching really bad at work one day face and left arm the worst) and then finding out the next day from my daughter that she was taking my son to the dr. for poison ivy.He'd went camping the previous Friday night and gotten it and I didn't even know it. I didn't know God would give you actual physical sensations about people that you are to pray for. I didn't know how to pray or even that I should pray. I just wracked my brain trying to figure out what I had used new that could be making me itch like that. I remember getting absolutely irritated on my way home from work, itching so bad I got mad about it!
I'm learning so much about intercession and the ways he works. One thing I know for sure and he keeps driving that lesson home: I do not dictate how he will reveal things to me. I am only to listen and rest in his ability to communicate what he wants communicated. And man, oh man, are his ways various. It sure keeps things interesting. It's an absolutely new adventure. I have no interest in mind control or any of that junk. definitely demonic. We are not in control. God is. Period. It's only when people relinquish our God given authority that satan has any ability to move and operate. The book of Job is a prime example. He asked for permissions and he was given definite boundaries. God is so good. He is so awesome! And to think that He invites us in, He in fact created us to share with Him, directed by and empowered by His Holy Spirit to work alongside Him. Awesome. Absolutely awesome. I've been so blessed today. I didn't know others were experiencing some of the same things I've been. And they are just as trembling and full of wonder and even timidity, afraid! Even a little afraid. He is not a tame lion. C. S. Lewis had the right of it on that. He's not tame at all and He will not allow pride to dictate. His ways are wonderful His wisdom unsearchable. He is GLORIOUS.
Some of my favorite commenters:
blondewitheyeq (She/he has cracked me up! Doesn't read newspapers or watch tv only reads yahoo headlines! Just like me! Wow. I've come home. These folks are family. As a matter of fact the clarion ledger recently was dropping off papers in my driveway, for about a week. and though I really intended to read them. I only managed to actually peruse one (Of course it did have a VERY interesting article in the business/classifieds that I knew I was supposed to see.
Wellspring, freedeagle, yadahseer, lordhavemercy, nightparable
And immediately the enemy comes with a distraction. Begone evil one. God is God. Forever. Your destiny and of all your nasty followers has already been written out. Mine is still being written. Though He slay me, yet I will trust Him. GET OUT.
I am currently Awestruck
I am listening to the ceiling fan
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Collabs are fun!
06/29/2007 03:16 a.m.
First time I've ever tried one and it was a blast!
We're not going to post it yet, got to figure out some kind of finish...
hmmmm
It's really cool... roflol, don't know HOW we're going to polish it off but I've had a great time with it.
Thanks Jeffrey! You're my hero, you took my mind off of so many sad things, and gave me lots of giggles and guffaws, you'll just never know how much I needed it! May your unborn children be blessed. And your unborn children's children.
I am currently Cheerful
I am listening to a knuckles worth of chuckles
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Awww Nawww
06/22/2007 05:40 p.m.
Wouldn't try to persuade me... wouldn't mention...
the ten thousand times we embrace in the deepest of embraces, nothing between us but our love
...serenaded by froggies and soft splashes of mullet
eating junk and making love again, till we sleep in each other's dreams
i promise, i wont' mention a word
i won't put any pressure on you to be here around 7:30 tonight. with my overnight bag, lol.
And Glenda would NEVER add to the conspiracy by sending me this article:
Emeril gives Gulfport a taste of 'Coastal Creole'
The Clarion-Ledger
Today world-renowned Chef Emeril Lagasse will open his newest restaurant,
Emeril's Gulf Coast Fish House at Island View Casino Resort in Gulfport, opens to the public tonight.
Dinner service tonight marks the debut of Chef Emeril Lagasse's “Coastal Creole” cuisine, as Chef de Cuisine Steve D'Angelo, General Manager Jason Lonigro and their staff of 90 infuse New Orleans flavor with Mississippi's fresh seafood.
The menu features Chef Emeril's classics like New Orleans Barbecued Shrimp, and famous Banana Cream Pie, as well as new additions including Crispy Jumbo Lump Crabmeat Cake with Corn Maque Choux, and Shrimp & Grits.
The restaurant is open seven days, with dinner service from 5:30 p.m.- 10 p.m. Sunday-Thursday, and from 5:30 p.m.-11 p.m. on Friday and Saturday.
Reservations may be made by calling the restaurant at (228) 314-1515.
I am currently Amazed
I am listening to splashing mullet and froggy serenades
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