my "children" are so funny.....
07/16/2005 09:45 p.m.
.....and as different as night and day.

For those of you who know me ~ well, you are probably scratching your noggins wonderin what in the world I am talking about. ~ Shonda doesn't have any children. ~

No, not in the human sense I don't. But us single-ones that have not been blessed with the splash of life little ones bring ~ well, we have our own type of children. Just ask any one of us. And they often are covered with hair, have four legs and a tail. Let's hope so anyway.

Mine are something else ~ just let me tell ya.
My Saussie is a chihuahua/feist mix. She is 10 years old, and weighs only 6 pounds. I have had her since she was 6 months, so she really is my little girl.
My Squire is a Jack Russell Terrier. He is only 3 years old, and weighs 19 pounds. I have had him since he was 6 weeks old. The first few nights I had him, he slept on my neck. Now he won't leave my side. (literally) He is my little man.

Anyway ~ the differences in them are so extreme it is a miracle that they exist peacefully under the same roof. But they do. I don't think they have anything in common. Just like true sister & brother. Except that they love their Mommy. Aahhh.

So the real reason for this extra-long-rambling-seem-to-have-lost-my-train-of-thought-somewhere-along-the-way entry *whew, gotta catch my breath* was that today it is storming here in my part of the world. And my little Saussie is shivering at my feet extremely afraid of the big claps of thunder, while my fierce Squire stands at attention waiting to scare this enemy off with his bark every times it booms.

Oh well, that just made me chuckle and I wanted to share.

Yep, gotta love this life-o-mine.
I am currently Thunderstruck
I am listening to the rain, the thunder, and the musings of my "children".

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MIT Survey
07/11/2005 02:01 a.m.


**Aaahhhh. Now don't I feel special. (not really) By the way, I got the link from Emily Myer's journal.***
I am currently Nerdy
I am listening to dvd background music.

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there is a quiz for everything & I am curious enough to indulge
07/10/2005 08:23 p.m.

Yes, you will always be remembered for your good
ways. You seem to be close and caring around
your family and other people you really know.
You will be a major loss for them. There will
be an empty spot once you are gone. It may
sound morbid to you, but it could also be good.
Keep on with your great ways. You will have a
beautiful funeral.


What Type of Funeral Will You Have? Will You Be Missed Once You're Gone?
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**not saying a word ~ oh and thanks to Uriel (I borrowed the link from his journal)**

I am currently Dumbfounded
I am listening to nothing.

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weird things I do
07/10/2005 03:55 a.m.
1)I walk through doors or gates backwards. After I open them, I turn around facing where I came from and proceed to step backwards.
2)I have to rinse my dishes before washing them. You can't put yucky dishes in yucky dishwater and expect them to come out clean.
3)I seperate my paperclips at work. I have two holders on my desk ~ one for large and one for small.
4)I can't stand for the corners of money to be folded. So no matter the case ~ I always unfold the edges. My money or not. You would be surprised how may bills have edges folded.
5)Absolutely nothing goes in my fridge or freezer without being placed in a ziplock bag or sealed container. Nothing. Unless they are in jars. Even if they have their own wrappers.
6)When I am in public ~ I always sit or stand facing the door. I want to see what is going to happen. If it ever does.
7)I never walk around bare-feet. Not even in my house. I have to have something on them. Socks or shoes. Something.
8)Every night before I go to bed ~ I always check the knobs on the stove and the deadbolt on my door. But never the smoke alarms or my windows.
9)When I am with a group of people; I am always at the back, in a corner, or by myself. As close to being by myself as you can be with people around.
10)At night, I have to face my alarm clock toward the wall. The light keeps me awake. Yet, I wake up several times a night and swing the clock around to see what time it is.
I am currently Weird
I am listening to the crickets & cicadas. Noisey little things.

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who gives a rate...
07/03/2005 04:03 a.m.
You know, I try and stay under the radar. Don't want to stir up some mess. Never cause any trouble.
And I realize that not everyone all of the time will think highly of my writings. Not even some people some of the time will and or do.
And I also realize that the rating system given to us is supposed to help both reader and writer. Which I think is a very useful tool.
But how are we supposed to know what is undesirable about a certain piece if all we get are low ratings.
Yes, I got about as low as I could get on my piece today. No, my feelings were not hurt. Yes, I was a little surprised with the rating. No, it won't stop me from allowing others to continue to rate my work.
I like to see what others think.
And it made me reread that piece very closely to see if I could get at the angle of this reader. I couldn't. I don't think any writer can without feedback ~ in word not rate.
So please, if you are going to give me a very low rating ~ at least be kind and considerate enough to tell me your reasonings on the given rate. I would love to know.
Ratings are good. But comments are better.
And how am I to improve if I don't know what the person thinks?
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I really appreciate it. :)
I am currently Clueless
I am listening to nothing.

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Despite everything, I'm counting...
06/28/2005 04:11 a.m.
There are some days when I don't want to leave my house. Even the thought of getting out of bed seems daunting. Today was one of those days.
I am tired of holding my head up high and trying to look at the positive things in this life. My knot is unraveling. I've been hanging tight for months now.
I am tired. I am ready to surrender.
And all I hear within my thoughts is a hymn I was taught at a very young age. I don't think of it as a coincidence though. More of a reminder ~ one I really need to hear.
After all, I am a child of God. That in itself should mean something to me.

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS by Johnson Oatman
(chorus)
Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your blessings See what God has done
Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your many blessings See what God has done

When upon life's billows You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings Name them one by one
And it will surprise you What the Lord has done

Are you ever burdened With a load of care
Does the cross seem heavy You are called to bear
Count your many blessings Every doubt will fly
And you will be singing As the days go by

When you look at others With their lands and gold
Think that Christ has promised You His wealth untold
Count your many blessings Money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven Nor your home on high

So, amid the conflict Whether great or small
Do not be discouraged God is over all
Count your many blessings Angels will attend
Help and comfort give you To your journey's end

Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your blessings See what God has done
Count your blessings Name them one by one
Count your many blessings See what God has done

I am currently Restless
I am listening to Count Your Blessings.

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a lesson in 3D
06/26/2005 04:46 a.m.
So my nephew spent the night with me last night. I had decided already that we were going to see a movie today. And I had decided to let him decide on which movie we would see. There were three chioces. Madagascar ~ Herbie ~ Sharkboy & Lavagirl.
I was hoping he would pick the first, maybe the second. Definitely any of them but the third. But it was his choice and I was going to honor it. No matter what. Guess which one he picks?
Yep, being the eight-year old boy that he is. Sharkboy & Lavagirl won.
And you know what? I am so glad that he did.
The movie was awesome. Everything about it. The whole experience was such a light spot in my otherwise dark life.
It has been years, well I guess since chidhood that I have seen a 3D movie. And honestly, I can't ever remember seeing one in the theaters. It was such a blessing to watch my nephew view one for the first time. The boys got Sharkboy glasses and the girls got ~ yep you guessed it Lavagirl glasses.
And the message in the movie ~ I would recommend to anyone. Parent, child, adolescent, or even single adult. I am so glad he picked it out. It is about holding on to your dreams. Despite what others tell you. And it is written from a child's perspective. Which makes it all the more better.
So if anyone is reading this ~ (hi & thanks) Take the time to watch this movie. Especially if you have a younger one that would enjoy it. I promise it will be time well spent.
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to the quiet of my life.

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I get what I deserve....
06/21/2005 10:42 p.m.

Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with Shonda Chrissonberryitis
Cause:	zombie attack
Symptoms:	back pain, occasional French accent, itching, sudden hives
Cure:	exercise
Enter your name, for your own diagnosis:

Tim told me not to get close. But I just couldn't help myself. Zombies are soooo misunderstood. If you only knew how much I crave them. I still say they make the "Perfect Man". And now look at me ~ I think this might be fatal.
I am currently Weird
I am listening to moans, groans, & grunts. (from the Zombie ~ silly)

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blame it on my birthday
06/17/2005 03:08 a.m.

Your Birthdate: February 16

Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone. You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent. You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate. You are introspective and a little stubborn. Because of this, it may not be easy for you to maintain permanent relationships, but you probably will as you are very much into home and family. This birth day inclines to interests in the technical, the scientific, and to the religious or the unknown realm of spiritual explorations. The date gives you a tendency to seek unusual approaches and makes your style seem a little different and unique to those around you. Your intuition is aided by the day of your birth, but most of your actions are bedded in logic, responsibility, and the rational approach. You may be emotional, but have a hard time expressing these emotions. Because of this, there may be some difficulty in giving or receiving affection.

circles, faith, me, and my God
05/18/2005 04:45 a.m.
Webster defines a circle as: a complete or recurring series, cycle. Faith as: an unquestioning belief in God. And me as: well, I suppose that Webster can't define me ~ at least not yet. And we all know, God can not be defined.

Circles seem to be a big part of my life. Take for instance ~ I speak about them in my bio. And just this evening, a fellow Patheticer (I think I made up a word there) and I were chatting. And somehow we made this huge conversational circle. Very fulfilling, but a circle nonetheless. We ended where we started. Thus the circle. And in my personal journal(you know, the one only me and the voices get to partake in) ~ just tonight I ended up writing on my life as a big, fat circle. Going nowhere.

Now, just as much as circles seem to be a big part of my life ~ my faith is much bigger. (I bet most of you didn't know that.) I don't talk about it that much. My faith that is. I know I need to. And perhaps even more importantly, I need to write about it. In writing, I share. And sharing is what it is all about. But you see, I am not one of those pushy Christians. (This is the part where I ask that no rude or otherwise negetive comments are left on the basis of my faith ~ and I thank you very humbly in advance.)

I try my best to keep all my affairs(affairs meaning daily life) clean, but I am flesh afterall and sometimes that creeps in. The flesh that is. I try and display a gentle person, not judgemental, not fingerpointing, not hypocritical. Merely loving and compassionate. It is my goal in life to let my faith in God portray the person I am. And I rely on that faith, my God to get me through my days. Not only my days ~ but this life.

Now, I know what you are thinking ~ and if you are still reading(thank you)I am almost done. There is alot I want to write about tonight. And I am afraid that if I don't hold back, my first novel might ensue. (insert laughter here) So I will get to my point.

Tonight after all my circles had been made, I sat down at my computer and just started talking to God. You know, praying. Asking Him for something, anything. I just needed to hear Him. And of course, most of you know how much I like quotes. I have this flip-book of quotes on top of my monitor. I haven't flipped it since mid-March. And I knew in my heart of hearts to flip to May 17th and see what today had to say. And for all of the unbelievers reading this ~ just please take it as my journal and nothing more than God using a moment to speak to one of His children.

My heart skipped a beat, and I knew God had just whispered to me. This was the quote:

God came to us because God wanted to join us on the road, to listen to our story; and to help us realize that we are not walking in circles but moving toward the house of peace and joy. Henri J. Nouwen

Nothing more need be said.
I am currently Awestruck
I am listening to the whisper of God.

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