Finals
04/29/2003 05:29 a.m.
Finals...tomorrow.....moving....wednesday....stressed....need tall glass of vodka....maybe a cigarette...maybe I just need to get laid....that's probably it.
I am currently Anxious
I am listening to Dido-Honestly ok (ironic huh?)

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Hulyeseg
04/27/2003 06:16 p.m.
I finally got a hold of my land lord, he's getting the carpets cleaned so I can't move in today. I don't think I can tomorrow either. Grrrrrr. I need to get out of my house. I have class tomorrow and finals on Tuesday and Friday, and then I am going to drink myself into a stupor and lay around for 2 days until my smell forces me into the shower. Anyway, I gotta study. I can't wait for this week to be OVER!!!!!!! Later


I am currently Anxious
I am listening to Mrs. Jackson

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My shift knob
04/25/2003 10:33 p.m.
Yesterday we had a surprise party for my mom's 50th birthday. I had spent about a week figuring out how we were going to get her to the restaraunt and guess what? My dad just TOLD her. So she wasn't surprised and all my creativity was for nothing. Grrrrrr. She got kinda drunk so I drove her home and in her van she had a bunch of random pieces from my car. Among the pile I found my Honda's shift knob. I hadn't really felt sad about it before, just lucky to be alive, but then once I saw the scratched up shift knob, with parts of it worn smooth from my hand, it made me sigh and reminisce. (Bad spelling, I know, but English majors don't know how to spell, that what makes us so cute.) I want to turn it into a necklace or something. I am having a tow truck company bring my car home today so that the city can come pick it up and dispose of it. For some reason, they can only pick it up from residential property. But I think it'll be sad to see it. If looking at the shift knob made me sad, then looking at the destroyed car will probably be much worse. I have this funky bruise on my arm that started out turquiose and now is turquiose on one side and banana yellow on the other, it's pretty interesting. And instead of developing standard black eyes, I have a long purple streak under each. I am not big on makeup, and even if I was, I don't know that I'd cover them. I bear my battle scars proudly and in tribute to my fallen friend, Uborka the Honda.
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to Someone using a chainsaw far away

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Mah!
04/25/2003 06:20 a.m.
Someone STOLE my hawaiian seat covers from my totaled car from the impound lot. I mean, I was feeling all good about the world and people, and this happened. Who would STEAL MY SEAT COVERS FROM MY DESTROYED CAR????? I really liked those seat covers, I got them at the swap meet in California, and they were microfiber, very comfortable. Sigh......
I am currently Bummed
I am listening to A bad Alaskan commercial

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Boldogsag!
04/25/2003 12:15 a.m.
I have a tattoo on my back that says "Bolgodsag" (Bol-dog-shag) with a little flower underneath it. It's a Hungarian word that means "Happiness." The last few days, I have been in a really good mood. Last summer, I was angry about everything and I felt like there was nothing good in my life and complained about everything, which is weird, because last summer I was in a relationship with Marcos, and then he dumped me really bad. So I guess part of it was being with him. I thought I would be really bitter and mean even after I got over the emotional part of the breakup, but things are really looking up for me. I mean, don't get me wrong, totaling my car was not fun and now I have black eyes on top of everything, but I dunno. The day I got in the accident, I got about 15 phone calls from random people around Girdwood asking how I was. I guess it's really nice to just get that affirmation sometimes that people really do care. I mean, I always know people care, but sometimes it's nice to be reminded. And my older sister, Amanda, told me the day of the accident that she wouldn't know what to do if I died. That was really nice. I mean, my sister and I get along really well, but we've never been the "I love you" huggy type sisters unless something serious happens. But anyway, it's just nice to feel loved, even though I'm not in a relationship or anything. Phoebe has been gone since last August off on exchange in Scarborough, England, and I am really missing a piece from my life. I guess I have just been mulling over what could have happened to me. I could be dead. I could be in a coma. I could have a broken pelvis. But instead I just have bruises, and those heal quickly. Every day I feel much better than the day before. Things are looking up. I am moving out, I'm not dead, school will be over next week (for 4 months anyway), and I'm going to "Stomp" with Morgan. Sometimes I really feel fortunate for all the things I have and how lucky I am. We should all be greatful, because I know sometimes things are bad, really bad, but it could almost always be worse. Not always, almost always. And with the bad, eventually comes the good. That's all for now.
I am currently Awestruck
I am listening to the clock ticking

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I totaled my car
04/23/2003 12:00 a.m.
Gahhhhhhhh! So today I was driving into Anchorage and I totaled my car. It's dead. I'm lucky I'm not dead, in fact, I am thrilled, shocked and relieved that I am not dead. So here's a tip, keep your karma, mojo, or religion on the good side because you never know what could happen and when. It's scared the crap outte me. I don't think it was my fault, I don't think the guy had his blinker on, but it happened so fast, I'm really not sure. Anyway, maybe I'll write more about it later, I'm kinda wired and freaked out right now. Later
I am currently Freaky
I am listening to My sister talking on the phone

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Work...study....work...study
04/22/2003 01:57 a.m.
Back in the campus center, as usual. I should just throw a bed in the cashroom and take sponge baths in the bathroom sink, then I would never have to leave. I can live off candy bars and frozen burritos until I get scurvy from the lack of vitamin C. Yesterday was Easter and for my great Easter brunch, I had a ham and cheese hot pocket. It was pretty sick. It made me long for the delicious brunch food being had at my parent's house in Girdwood. Ugh! Finals are soon, and I have to move out on Monday. I can't freaking wait to get the hell outta there. Don't get me wrong, my parents are good people, and they let me have a lot of freedom, but it's time for me to go. I'm 21, I gotta get out. If I want to stay out all night, that's my deal. If I want a boy (gasp) to sleep over, yeah, I can do it. I'm listening to Nelly Furtdao again, she's my hero. I just think she's awesome, talented and beautiful. But I already talked about that. I am going back to Hungary in 3 weeks. I am basically breathless with anticipation, seriously. I will probably write quite a bit more while I am there because I will have a lot more to say.
I am currently Bored
I am listening to Ching-Ching by Ms. Jade and Nelly Furtado

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Out of shape
04/20/2003 12:49 a.m.
I went for a 15 mile bike ride with my mom and older sister, and let me just say, I am so freaking out of shape. Oh well. I need to exercise a lot more often than I do, but we'll see how that goes. It's so weird, I always feel really good when after I exercise, and it's not like it's torture to exercise, I just can't make myself for some reason. I need an exercise buddy that forces me to go get exercise with them. I think I'll take a shower and crawl back into bed. I woke up too early anyway. I'm moving out in 9 days. That is 9 too many. I can't wait to get outta here and not have to deal with the commute to Girdwood, the construction is outta control. I got stopped last night at midnight. I was going 45MPH and the lady holding the slow sign kept waving it around frantically, I guess she thought I was moving a little too fast, but I really just wanted to give her the finger. She's lucky Iw asn't going 70 like I usually am. Anyway, it's off to shower.
I am currently Tired
I am listening to An old SNL rerun

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Nelly Furtado
04/19/2003 03:41 a.m.
A lot of people make fun of me because I am a huge fan of Nelly Furtado. But hey, she writes her own music, and plays guitar, which is much much more than I can say for most pop stars. Plus, so much of her stuff is healing. After the whole Marcos incident, I listened to "...On the Radio" about 4,000 times. The main point of that song is "stay true to myself." I think that's really important. I never really saw the point in meeting someone, and pretending to be a different Corrie than I was so that they would like me. Eventually, they are gonna see me, and then what? You can't pretend forever. So I guess I just want to say that to anyone with a broken heart, listening to her will help you. Another thing: people will tell you how to act towards your ex. "Don't call, don't e-mail, break off contact completely!" Sooooo much easier said than done. I was an e-mail PSYCHO! 4,5,6 times a day. Not that his replies made me feel good, they made my stomach turn and my heart ache, but I couldn't stop hurting myself. I longed for him to come crawling back and claim his hideous mistake. Nope. Another thing, ignorance is bliss. I knew his e-mail password, so I checked it a lot. That's how I found out he was in love with someone else, the WORST thing you can ever find out about someone you are in love with. It's all good now. I mean, he's gone, outta my life, and that's just how it has to be. I probably would have gotten here without Nelly Furtado, but trust me, when you are so low that all you can do is look at the micorwave and cry, you will hang on to anything. And her music is a great handle.
I am currently Depressed
I am listening to The luau downstairs at work

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UAA
04/17/2003 05:38 p.m.
Another day, waiting between classes, in limbo, or whatever. Sitting in the back office of the information desk, listening to students asking stupid questions and the staff occassionally giving equally stupid answers. Waiting to walk to Linguistics, and freeze my ass off between buildings. It's my own fault, it was snowing this morning, even though it's April, and I decided to wear flip-flops again. But I figure if I just dress for summer, it will show up eventually. Anyway, off to class I go. Only a few more lectures and finals and this semester's over, thank God!
I am currently Bleh
I am listening to Fiona Apple, Shadowboxer

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