everyone has someone to love them...
02/21/2005 05:24 p.m.
yesterday, andikins and rob fashioned a surprise 30-over-the-hill birthday party for me... i cannot recall having a birthday party before, and i definitely have never had a surprise anything... they made this poor pregnant woman cry real tears... all 5 of my siblings were there, and dear friends and i tell you, it was one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me... andi, you truly are my best friend... i will never forget what you did... and to my thoughtful husband... well, what can i say, we're growing old together... i know how much effort and work it took on everyone's part to pull it off, and i am very grateful (crystal, duke and summer... thank you)... anyhoo... i'm going to post some of the festivities in my blog... i’m pretty grateful today… the first words out of rob’s mouth this morning were “happy birthday”… cheers to having the best birthday i, literally, have ever had…
I am currently Blessed
I am listening to the Cure... the Fiction Years

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cut off by a cop...
02/16/2005 06:23 p.m.
ok, now i've finally had it... i'm writing a letter to someone somewhere... i was just cut off by a bleeping female cop driving home... i had to slam on my brakes and veer into the other lane... she didn't even glance at me (made a hazardous left in front of me, and of course did not use her turn signal)... i'd like to take her by her blonde pony-tailed hair and beat the holy crap out of her...

you know why i'm so irritated by these cruddy drivers?... because, if i get in a fender bender or minor accident, i'll probably be ok, my 5 year old will probably be ok... but my unborn child will probably NOT be ok... i make it a point to leave 3 car lengths in front of me and hope people stay off my bumper... i really despise you crappy drivers... really... and i know this is not the witchy way, but if you cut me off or drive carelessly around me in anyway, i swear, i will not care if i see you wrecked up ahead on the road... you'll have earned it... and palmdale cops: YOU SUCK!

I am currently Angry
I am listening to silence... and dreams of catfighting a cop... and myself whine

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bragging...
02/14/2005 05:18 p.m.
my daughter just received the Principal's award at her school... High Honors...

damn i'm proud... i'll be posting pics in my blog...

i pray that i'm a good enough parent to let that talent flourish and blossom... to feed it and water it and watch it grow...


I am currently Proud
I am listening to Geneviere (my mastiff) whine about the fresh air...

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i' m going to get shot for this, but oh well..
02/12/2005 08:23 p.m.
sorry, i thought this quite funny, for i share the same feeling about this man... just found it quite odd (and a bit uplifting) that an entertainer/celebrity would say this... (courtesy of my dear grandmama)

http://www.patsajak.com/news2.php?view=says&id=35

(warning, if you like john kerry, don't read... the foul language might disturb you *smirk*...)


I am currently Bemused
I am listening to the dishwasher

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frustrated...
02/11/2005 11:00 p.m.
before we had the politics forum, politics were discussed in the general forum... i left because there are a few people here, that no matter how nice everyone plays, they must throw a little sarcasm into the fray... even if it's an after-thought... even if they mean no harm... even if even if even if... YOU GET YOUR AGENDA ACROSS... over and over and over... it's frustrating... i was really enjoying the dialoguing in the forum... but a sarcastic remark, again, like the old days, just caught my eye... and although probably a lovely person, and although they probably mean well (pushing their agenda, when we already know their agenda) and although i could spark an arguement and ask why generalized sarcastic remarks are necessary... i won't...

at least i was there long enough to learn something... from someone on the other end of where i'm at... see, if you want me to listen, all you have to do is be civil, not sarcastic...

i'm conservative, not on the right... and i was learning a lot from liberals, not the left...

back to poetry...
I am currently Frustrated
I am listening to more rainfall

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madness
02/11/2005 04:45 p.m.
another morning drive... you would think today would be different, since it's POURING BLOODY HELL OUT THERE!... nope... i drove 65 (the speed limit), should have been driving 35... and cars were flying by me... i couldn't see a foot in front of me... freaking amazing...

to all you jerks in southern california who play russian roulette on the freeways in california: i hope it's you who dies, and not me...

sorry i always harp on this... it's just i have this fear i'm going to die in this goddess forsaken desert at the hands of a crappy cali driver...
I am currently Amazed
I am listening to my heart beat... survived one more drive...

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drudging up memories...
02/11/2005 02:04 p.m.
thank you thank you thank you...

for drudging up the past...

even though rough and not perfect (is anything?)... you have allowed me to remember, and sometimes remembering is a GOOD thing...

i often wonder where pathetic fits into the context of my life... and why i include it into my day... there are a couple of minds here who i would share my universe with, before one in my own family... maybe that's where it fits, just because it's suppose to... i do believe that things happen for a reason (call me silly, that's just how i feel)... and i do believe in you...

i pray rob makes it to work safely as it's raining hard in california...

thank you, philip... for more than you know... you are a true jewel that has enriched my psyche more than any diamond could...
I am currently Blessed
I am listening to the rainfall outside my windowsill...

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i'm a pine tree... like that's a surprise...
02/09/2005 07:50 p.m.
(my Grandmother sent me this through email)

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 2 5 - Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

YOUR TREE (in alphabetical order)

Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and
attraction, pleasant at titude, flirtatious smile, adventurous,
sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender
partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate
partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive,
demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent,
talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable,
restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention,
needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks,
materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good
leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime
companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, s ports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,
unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the
vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of
imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes
unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look
down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often
impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious,
healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick
decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive,
well-developed sense of just ice, fun to be around, a planner, born
diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard
worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely
family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what
life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content,
optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and
affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied,
faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to
gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest
demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not
to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others,
noble-minded, generous, good sense of humour, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest,
loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when
wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few
sexual relationships, great sense of humour, has artistic talent and
great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves
anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard
to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and
laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented,
unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humour, very
demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a
lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics,
popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a
precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and
condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as
possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and
acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is
seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of
its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes
out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones,
hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough,
but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for
family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use
them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is
jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of
imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud,
self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many
complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to
impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robus t nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting,
independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the
ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable,
balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm,
well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of
jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and
harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write
poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls
strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft,
low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very
self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and
pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great
artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy,
reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without
egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even
complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic,
passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts,
often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions,
spontaneous, unlimited a mbition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon
partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very
jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life,
full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very sympathetic, loves anything
beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic
places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy
to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition,
suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves
to make others laugh.

I am currently Bemused
I am listening to a baby story (i'm a glutton for punishment)

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from one of our own... not a news reporter...
02/09/2005 01:48 p.m.
this is an PM i received from our service man, Dana E Brossard (currently serving in Iraq) after leaving a comment on his newest poem: They Smile (http://www.pathetic.org/poem.php?page=library.php&i_memberid=1136&i_poemid=1107794979&i_folderid=560&mode=)


i asked if i could post his response in a journal entry, and he told me i could... i'm sorry, but for all the wonderful well meaning people who have no clue what they are talking about, why don't you ask someone who is actually there... (excuse me if i sound irritated, but i watched this horribly constructed michael moore fundraiser show a couple of weeks ago, taped in November, that had two ex-service men, both dressed slovenly and un-kempt, (kind of like michael moore) yelling their dislike of the war... i was seriously wondering if they were truly soldiers or not, they had absolutely no tact...) this post isn't about our president, it is about our people... and i'm sick of our people getting trashed... and any other country that is there with us... and unless you served in a war and are over 50 (like many of our fine poets here... you know what you are talking about... i won't even touch your opinions, you waaaaay outrank me *grin*), then i think it's time to start listening to all the facts, not just the ones you want to hear... not everything is black and white... even though it feels good to be with the elite, the "in -crowd", trashing our president (one man, one man)... remember, those defending our opinionated little selves can hear us...

From Dana E Brossard on 02/08/2005 08:12:40.254586 PST
Thank you for taking the time to read and post Michele. Being over here in the middle of everything, I do so hate to see what they show on tv, because truth be told, I do not see or know of most of what they show and speak of. It's still scary over here, and we are constantly attacked, but by far and large, most of the people out here are happy to see us and have us around. Especially the children.

I am currently Thoughtfull
I am listening to nothing...

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what i meant to say,
02/03/2005 06:32 p.m.
when i wrote the poem "changing lanes" was: "They make turn signals for a FUCKING reason, mister."

Sorry... bad morning drive, again...

i guess enough people have to die before something is done (on an average, where i live, when there is an accident on the freeway or straightaways, 95% of the time, it is a fatality accident, because of the rate of speed)...

Fight Club in progress... "On a large enough time line, the survival rate for everyone will drop to zero. ~Chapter 2"... out here, our time line seems kind of short this morning...
I am currently Sarcastic
I am listening to Jeff Buckley

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