Life
03/18/2005 05:57 p.m.
WEll I am now 50 yrs old, and have been for awhile, still smiling and loving the fact that I am half way there. Lately I have been playing with my picture online... perhaps getting used to the me that I am now. I think that we change all the time, not the core us.... that pretty much stays the same.... but changing, hopefuly for the better. I sometimes wonder at my peace inside, my happiness with being 50. There are alot of things I wonder about in odd moments *grin*....  God has been very good to me, there are alot of reasons to smile. Each night I fall to sleep, not with tears on my pillow and a feeling of loneliness... but with a smile, and talking to god, saying Thank You. Spring is comming after all and with it sunshine, like that within me. I am experimenting with the background here and will leave it however disjointed it is or hard to read because.... *wicked grin*... I had fun doing it, I will also leave all the words I do not spell just right, because afterall this is just for me....  *smile*  isn't it???????                                                                                           
I am currently Calm
I am listening to Birds outside my window

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There Are Times
02/02/2005 08:51 a.m.

There are times when I wonder,

If the words will ever find me again,

Have I set aside more than the penning of emotions

Will I wake, cold, unfeeling

Unable to experience, or express...

This moment will pass

As will I...

Will we be...

Unremembered

Unwritten

Moments...

Birthday
11/15/2004 05:59 p.m.

I celebrated my 50th birthday this Saturday, it was wonderful! Thank you to all of my friends here who wished me a happy birthday. I think that this was one of the happiest birthdays I have had in a very long time. I spent it with my children. Funny how fast they grow. Also I learned a few lessons about friendship and who is and is not my friend. Friendship being more than a word, and friends something so special that nothing else on earth is quite like it. I hope that I have learned a bit about choosing my friends, and who I allow into my life, and the deeper spaces of my being. It has been an interesting year, and not all of it the way I would have wanted, but perhaps the way I needed to have it in order to learn. I am going to try to be here a bit more, I would like to thank all of my friends who have been so supportive and giving, and say that I shall try to give a bit more in the future. *hugs* to you all, I think that perhaps the dark clouds are finally clearing and maybe.... just maybe you will see a smile.

Love You All

Bit of a bite
09/08/2004 12:35 p.m.
It is sooo very easy for some to think that I am all sweetness, and ninenty percent of the time I am, but that other ten percent now and again gives voice, this is such...

Cursing Again

Miss M
08/24/2004 06:57 p.m.
The drive was a long one, on a road that I thought would never end. It seemed that it took forever to enter the state of Georgia. The trip was a long one but well worth it, I think the reason it seemed so long was I could not wait to finally hug Miss Marion. For years I have wanted to meet the woman who was my soul sister in this life and previous ones. There was such a sense of travling home....  you know when you've been away and you have travled a long time the last few miles are the longest. When Marion pulled into the lot my heart took wings and inside of me I was laughing and singing... finally finally  she was there and she opened her arms and we just held on to each other, I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. My sister... and believe me when I say that she is beautiful... she is inside and out. This woman who welcomed me and my daughter into her home and life. Yonah was breath taking.... it is peaceful and powerful. People have said to me.... that I am crazy to meet people I talk to here. If I am.. then it is the best kind of crazy. One of the most memorable times of my life will be this vacation. Ally.... what can I say of such a sweet spirit.... I looked into her eyes and saw love... that sweet innocent love that only the very young spirits have. She is a beautiful young woman with an inner peace I have seen in few people. Chastity... *smile*.... oh there is a young woman who is very full of life.....  These three women welcomed us, and made us truly feel at home, I can never thank them enough for sharing those two days of happiness with Becca and I.It was great, the kind of adventure you read about in books and never think to have yourself.. the girls were talking and laughing, while Marion and I put our feet up and enjoyed Yonah.... we seemed to talk without the need of words sometimes, and to hear the girls in such good spirits just brought smile after smile to us. I will write about this more when I return home, this computer has a habit of freezing on me when I am right in the middle of something.... Marion Burkett.. you are BEAUTIFUL.. and God has Blessed us with your loving spirit... you Ally and Chastity.... are always welcome.... *soft smile* and I think we will be seeing each other again.... May you always walk in Love, Peace and Beauty... *tight hug*... Thank You.. for being YOU~
I am currently Blessed
I am listening to Grandfather Laugh.....

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Short Note
08/20/2004 03:32 a.m.

I would post a short note upon my door

Vacationing....

*Smile*  

I just wanted to let you all know, that I am on vacation again...  Yippeeeeeee! My daughter and I have been having a great time!  The vacation started at Cayuga Lake, then we went to Oneida Lake for a few days, when I got the idea for a road trip, woke my daughter and said "If you want to go to Niagra Falls you better shake your buns!"  So off we went after packing up and maping our route. We had a great time and wonderful trip, she navigated for me and did it well! After visiting the falls which we both want to return to and go on the Canadian side too.... we went to Letchworth State Park. It is an awesome park and the people who work there are very sweet. We agreed that it is another must visit again place. Letchworth will forever be a special place to me ... for it is there I met in person my dear friend whom some of you are sure to remember Cass E. Blake... or Cassie. She is as wonderfuly sweet in person as she is online. She and her husband were so kind and so much fun that I and my daughter hated for the visit to end. We are currently in Virginia Beach and soon to head out to Georgia to meet another dear friend... Marion Burkett *smile*.......  I promised to meet both of them, and by golly I am finally going to!  I will be writing of our adventures in more detail at another time, right now I am borrowing my sister's fiance's computer.... Take Care one and all!  See you after vacation~ *waving gaily*~

Love,

Kate

Recent Happenings
07/27/2004 02:45 a.m.
Well things are about par... the computer got a virus and I lost some more work. I havn't written in a while so not a big loss thanks to pps. There are times I wonder if I can or will write anything worth posting again. I am thankful that I have a computer once again, and thankful for friends not afraid to lend a helping hand, God Bless You Bob! I am thankful for My Daughter and My Son who make it worth getting up in the morning. Thankful for all of my friends online and off line, it is our friends and family that get us through the hard times. I hope you are all well and happy. Hopefuly I will write again soon. Take Care and God Bless
I am currently Quiet
I am listening to The Rain

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From Cass E Blake... to her buds
06/17/2004 02:03 a.m.
To any of Cassie's buddies who also read me, she would like you to know she has not forgotten you, and that she does come and read.. if anyone would like her e-mail address, they have only to ask and I will give it.
I am currently Friendly
I am listening to night fall

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Tigger
04/11/2004 01:58 a.m.
   After writing and posting my most recent poem, my dear friend and companion Tigger, was hit and killed outside my home. It still seems unbelievable that he is gone. I catch myself going to the door to let him in, only to discover he isn't there, and remember that he is gone. In the middle of the night I will wake and reach out to pet him, only to discover an empty space there behind my knees where he always slept. No more am I woken in the night by him at my head nuzzling softly for attention, and it hurts...  There is such a large void now not only in the bed, but in my life. Funny how much a part of my life he was. Often I have been alone here with only him for company. How many mornings he would wake me moments before the alarm went off for a bit of a scratch and cuddle, how much I loved those few prescious moments we would share. Funny cat, he would always try to put his nose between my fingertips and the keys when I would chat with certian friends......  He had a way of looking at me when he wanted something, sort of cocking his head off sideways as if I should have already anticipated what he wanted. He would sit on my computer table and reach out his paw, and place it softly on my lips, when I would be typing something sad. Often he would reach his nose out and give me a soft kiss, just when I needed it most. He was a beautiful humanbeing... More than a friend, Part of me seems to be missing now...  Wherever you are Tigger.... I hope that you are as loved as I was while you were here with me. I love you..... I miss you..... I believe that you are in heaven, for you truly were an angel on earth.
I am currently Reflective
I am listening to Night Sounds

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Just thoughts
04/07/2004 06:31 a.m.
I suppose that I could blame my silence on the pneumonia, I could blame it on life becoming very busy, I could blame it on a thousand and one things but that would be a lie. The silence was very deliberate, a shutting of the door. I am not sure that particular door will ever be opened as it once was ever again. But I am attempting to put a thought or two together openly and honestly. I don't think that I will ever write and post anyting and everything again in my life as I once did. But for the moment, there is a whisper...
I am currently Detached
I am listening to Clothes tumble...

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