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Everything You Ever Wanted/Ganguro Nightmare (Update)

by Eric Seligmann

Clearing smokers throat

Waking up, nowhere to go

But down

Drown in come down

Smelling of stale cigarettes

The screech of passing jets

Are ringing in my ear

Lured into her indentation that she left

It seduces the noose tighter around my neck

Confined to my bed

Bound between the sheets

Toss and turn restless

Still counting dead sheep

Wide awake

Drenched in sweat

I Lay dreamless through the night

Next to her silhouette

Got a dictionary, cup of coffee, mass depression feeds me

Insomnia, migraine, mental break down

Does Karma conspire to bring me down?

Paranoia, nervous shakes, emotional melt down

Where's my form of methadone?

I guess I'll just go do it alone

In cold sweats

I grab my pyrex tube

And leather bag

Short days melt into weeks

Seem to drag

Lost in the fog

I exist somewhere between

A cheap brand of sleep and infected dream

Feels like splitting atoms

Right in my head again

Got a cemetery, apothecary, narcolepsy out to bury me

Hyperventilation, asphyxiation, keeping my head clouded

Do the stars conspire to rip me apart?

Atrophy, border philosophy, communication break down

I married you so long ago

The proof is written in scars I own

And I am watching my figure now

Trying to get thinner for you, my wife

All dressed down in plastic and crystal white

I say I'm okay but I'm hardly alright

Hiding behind my static

Electronic eyes that scan the horizon

Hoping that someday we will meet again

When our two roads meet the same dead end

I've got futility, my demon nods to me, mass obsession greeting me

Hypersomnia, nausea, nuclear melt down

Does the doc conspire to keep me in my bed again?

Cataplexy, stressors, tremors, cardiac shut down

My tired state of mind

Has me running out of time

And I'm fading fast

The only thing I ask

Is forgiveness for what's past

From you, my wife

All wrapped in plastic and crystal white

I say that I'm alright but I'm hardly okay

The truth lies somewhere between my words

And my mistakes, that have kissed me with human error

Fueling terror trapped in your despair

Forever, its You and I, together

My little ganguro nightmare


Author's Note: I have had a lot of time to work on music. Without a band, I am doing guitar, vocals, bass, drums, mixing, and mastering all myself. It has given me time to revisit old or unfinished works. This is what "Everything you ever wanted" has turned into...and song finalized after not doing anything with it for a decade.

Posted on 05/21/2021
Copyright © 2021 Eric Seligmann

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