Now my heart is broken and bleeding and I miss you
so much, it makes me sick to think of you out there
with someone else. Without me. Leaving me alone.
I curl in on myself at night and feel the ache.
It's cold in this building but I know soon I'll be
back out in the heat, thinking about how I have
no one. You were helping me forget about
my pain and now that you're gone, it's all I can
think about, feel anymore.
Mother gone. Heart broken over and over.
If only I could stop letting people in, I'd never
have to feel this pain again. But that is not
how I function.
I feel like I can't function anymore at all.

06/03/2017

Author's Note: Really just a stream of consciousness. I think this one is pretty weak.

Posted on 06/06/2017
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