I'm fighting a war that's not easily won
I loved you at first but it stopped being fun
The battles are scary, intense, and long-lived
You took everything; now I've nothing to give
You sucked out my soul, what small piece I had left
You drove me to lying, to cheating, to theft

I gave you my all, what I got in return
Was a deadly addiction and bridges I've burned
You tell me I'm fine, but I take that to mean
That you're still on my mind, I'm a fucking dope fiend
I've heard countless lies from you throughout my life
That I'd be your best friend and your lover, your wife

Instead I got beaten, and broken, and bruised
Any time that you wanted, each time that I used
I'm learning to leave you, this life full of sin
I am comfortable now, living in my own skin
I like how it feels to discover I'm free
I finally know what it's like being me

So leave me alone, I am through, I am done
I'm so sick of hiding, of trying to run
Dear heroin, I don't want you anymore
Try to fight me, I'm ready to even the score
This war, I admit, was so hard to begin
But dear heroin, fuck you. I'm going to win.

07/17/2016

Author's Note: I've been absent from writing because I've been too busy being a heroin addict. I wrote this in rehab when I had 79(?) days clean.

Posted on 07/17/2016
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