You have done it to me now,
You have hurt me in every possible
way that I know how.
You have no idea how you have filled my life
with so much pain,
You have done nothing
but cause me to feel insane.
I wish that i could open your eyes to see
all the change you have brought to my life,
The pain i keep feeling is life being
stabbed repeatedly with a knife.
You have taken my heart and
torn it into small bits.
I wish that you could understand how afraid
of you I am because of your fits.
I always knew I would never live up to
what you wanted me to be,
But you know what? It's my life!
I will do what every it takes to break away and be free.
I wish that I could say
having you in my life has been a blast,
Now that I am leaving, you will just be
a memory in my past.
I have so many emotional scars
from all the times you made me cry,
Every time that I wanted to die,
It was because you made me feel like I was living a lie.
I don't know why I didn't tell you
before how I always did feel,
I know my crying and silence to you
is how you made me like I was not real.
I wish you could have been true to me
instead of someone fake,
I guess I never should have been your child,
I was your biggest mistake.
I know as soon as I am gone,
I will not think twice about looking back,
All you could ever do is make me feel
like I was under attack.
I know is should never
ask you why,
I know this is the only way
to stop being able to live a lie.
If I ask you a question,
would you answer if truthfully?
Or will you continue to lie
and make me unhappy?
I want to give up so
I can stop having a painful life,
My friends are the only ones making feel
Like I have a meaningful life.
I wish that I could go back to a time
where I did exist,
At least I know you would not have any regrets,
I know I would not be missed.
When I look back on everything
that has happened in my life,
I really do wish when I was
attacked I was finished off with that knife.
If I had known then
what i know now,
I would have done everything
I could to make this nightmare some way some how.
I am now starting to
walk out the door,
As a final reminder once I walk out
I will not look back again, no more.

04/17/2005

Posted on 12/24/2014
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