I can hear a quiet voice whispering in my ear,
For some reason when it gets closer, I seem to be running in fear.
I can hear footsteps getting closer with every step in my mind,
Every time I start searching, it is the one thing I cannot find.
Sometimes I can feel myself starting to gasp for another breath of air,
I cannot figure out if I am going to die, or the fact that I do not care.
I start to feel like someone is trying to take my life,
I can start to feel the pain of the cold steel knife.
I can feel my heart beating faster in my chest,
I wish that I could of found someone that I loved the best.
I can hear myself screaming, but no one can hear,
The next thing I know I am trying to run away from the one thing I fear.
The one thing I fear most is the one thing I cannot figure out,
When I try searching around, I cannot seem to understand what it is about.
It is almost like I am letting my body float away,
I wish I could figure out if I was truly supposed to be here some day.
I feel like I will always be empty, but i cannot understand why,
Whenever I come near anyone, I feel like I am living a lie.
I cannot help to wonder why I always feel the way I do,
I do not know what to do to tell if some one is really being true.
I guess there is nothing that I can do to try and change,
It is hard to be around other people, because I feel so strange.
I know that there are some things I will never comprehend,
I guess when it comes to my life I will never understand.

01/17/2004

Posted on 12/23/2014
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